Girl in the War
Geonn
Sam sat on the bench in front
of her locker and bent down to adjust the strap of her boot. Just as she was straightening
up, the door swung open and Captain Beverly Matheson hurried in. "'Scuse me, Major," she said as she brushed past. Sam stood
up and followed Matheson into the shower area. She watched as the woman
disappeared into a bathroom stall and winced as she became sick.
"Everything okay?"
Sam asked. "We, uh... we're supposed to ship out in ten minutes."
"I don't think I'm going
to make it," Matheson groaned, her voice echoing against the bathroom
stall.
Sam tried to keep her sigh as
quiet as possible. She closed her eyes and leaned against the wall. "Do
you need a doctor?"
"No, ma'am. Just... I
get really nervous before I travel, so... oh, God..."
Sam turned away as the
captain got sick again. She shook her head and left the locker room to find
Colonel O'Neill and Teal'c waiting in the hallway outside. O'Neill raised an
eyebrow. "Let me guess. She's not going to be ready for the mission."
"It's highly doubtful,
sir." He rolled his eyes and she rushed to defend the poor soldier
currently throwing up behind her. "Remember, sir, Daniel used to have
allergy attacks on every planet we visited. He got over that eventually."
"Yeah, just what I need.
Break in a new geek."
Sam didn't comment on that.
Captain Matheson was a highly-regarded linguist who had, unfortunately, spent
most of her career in a classroom. She had been thrilled to learn her lifelong
study of dead languages might come in handy, but was less excited when she
learned how her knowledge would be
supplied. She had fainted at the sight of the Stargate, and gotten ill at the
first mention of why the Jaffa had a stomach pouch.
"She won't make
it," Sam guessed.
"No, Major, I don't
think she will." O'Neill pushed off the wall and checked his watch.
"One hour and fifty-three minutes since Hammond told us she was our
problem. Mark it down, Teal'c; looks like Captain Matheson is the current
record-holder." He tapped his watch and walked down the hall.
Sam moved next to Teal'c and
glanced up at him. "What do you think?"
He pondered the question for
a moment and then said, "It would appear Daniel Jackson was an extremely
unique individual. It will not be easy to find someone capable of filling the
void he has left."
Sam nodded grimly.
"Yeah. Well, I guess we should go tell General Hammond that Matheson won't
work out."
Teal'c bowed and followed Sam
down the corridor. The problem was they kept getting these newbie recruits assigned
as possible new team members. They had all been soldiers or scientists who
hadn't proven themselves in the SGC, let alone that they had what it took to be
a member of the flagship team. She didn't feel that they were being elitist,
they were being reasonable. They didn't just need new meat,
they needed someone who knew what they were doing. Someone they were already
comfortable with. As they stepped into the elevator with Colonel O'Neill, an
idea began to form in the back of Sam's mind.
"Sir, could I request
General Hammond hold off assigning a new member to our team?"
"You could request it.
As for whether he would allow it..." He glanced at her. "Why?"
Sam shook her head. "I
don't want to say anything until I've explored it further, if you don't mind,
sir."
He shrugged and turned back
to face the elevator door. "Hey, don't worry about me. I'm up for anything
that keeps us from having another team member foisted on us for another few
days."
#
Janet swung the door open,
registered who was standing on her stoop, and immediately turned away without a
greeting. She left the door open as she stalked back through the dining room.
She called out, "And just because I agreed to it last time doesn't give you carte blanch. Do you understand
me?"
Sam stepped into the house
and caught a flash of furious teen girl storming past the kitchen door. Janet
barked, "Do you understand me?"
"Yes! God! Fine!" This,
followed by footsteps down the hall and a slamming door.
Janet turned and held both
hands up by her face. She formed claws with her fingers, growled low in her
throat and said, "Please tell me there's a horrible contagion on the base
and I need to come in and start quarantine procedures."
"No such luck," Sam
said. She shut the door and nodded her chin toward the back of the house.
"Terrible Teens?"
Janet rolled her eyes. She
was still in her uniform, but she had let down her hair. It hung in tired
strands around her face, and she walked back across the dining room in her
stocking feet. She sighed, pushed her bangs out of her eyes and said, "She
spent the afternoon with William. Studying.
All I know is that I didn't study
until eight o'clock at night on a school night."
"Yes, you did," Sam
said as stepped behind Janet and gripped her shoulders.
"Yes, I did," Janet
sighed. She rolled her head back and leaned into Sam's massage. Sam gently
kneaded Janet's tired muscles through her uniform blouse and the white T-shirt
she knew was underneath. As she dug her fingers in and Janet began to turn to
ooze, Sam kissed Janet's temple and quietly said, "Let's move to the
couch, yeah?"
"Yeah," Janet said.
They walked to the couch and Janet stretched out across the cushions,
face-down, and rested her cheek against the pillow. Sam straddled her waist,
cracked her knuckles and took Janet in her hands again. Janet sighed as Sam put
her weight behind her hands.
As Janet proceeded to seep
between the cushions, Sam said, "Hey. If you were suddenly transferred,
would you be able to find someone to take over as CMO at the base?"
"Mm. Probably,"
Janet said. "Carolyn Lam is really good. Oh, a little to the left."
"There?"
"Yes... why?"
Sam kneaded the flesh a bit
longer before answering. Finally, she said, "General Hammond is insisting
on assigning a fourth member to SG-1. I was thinking I would suggest you."
Janet frowned, but kept her
eyes closed. "Me? Why?"
"You're military, you're
field-rated, and the team knows you. We like and respect you."
"I'd be under Jack
O'Neill's chain of command," Janet said.
Sam smiled. "Hey, I
survived it. Can I take this off?"
"Mm-hmm." Janet
pushed herself up and Sam helped her remove her blouse. Janet twisted one way,
then the other, and stretched out again on the couch. Sam pulled up Janet's
undershirt and rubbed the tender flesh on either side of Janet's spine.
"Oh, I like that," Janet sighed and moved her hand under her cheek.
"You really think I would fit in on the team?"
Sam shrugged. "It would
make sense to have a medical doctor on our team, given some of the villages we
encounter. They barely have medicine, let alone a trained doctor to tell them
how to use it. It would cut out a lot of back and forth if you were already on
the planet with us. Your military training would mean you fit in at least as
well as Daniel did at the beginning, probably better. And, like I said, the
team loves you and we trust you. That's the most important thing. Colonel
O'Neill, Teal'c and I already put our lives in your hands every day."
"I don't know..."
"You don't have to
commit right now. If you agreed, you would come with us on our next mission. A trial
run," Sam said. She dug her fingers into Janet's back, drawing a
prolonged, "ahhh" from her lover. She bent
down and kissed Janet's neck. "Come on," she whispered. "I
always love being in the field with you. That black T-shirt..." She slid
her hands around Janet to cup her breasts through her brassiere. She squeezed
and Janet whimpered. Sam flicked Janet's earlobe with her tongue.
"You're an evil
woman," Janet sighed.
"Mm-hmm," Sam
whispered. "And when we're not on missions, you can still work in the
infirmary like I do in the lab."
"Evil," Janet
repeated.
"So, can I bring it up
to General Hammond?"
Janet hesitated, and then
said, "If he goes for it, I'm willing. I can call Carolyn tomorrow and see
if she's willing to fill in for me in the infirmary."
Sam sat up and resumed her
massage. After a few minutes, she said, "So. This Carolyn woman..."
The corners of Janet's mouth
curled up into a grin. "Don't worry, she was
before I even met you."
"So she is an ex?"
Janet moaned into the couch
cushion.
Sam chuckled and moved down
Janet's body. She kneaded the muscles of Janet's legs, her athletic thighs and
calves. She bent Janet's leg and danced her fingers along the sole of Janet's
foot. She pulled, circled and gently flexed Janet's toes, one at a time, and
kissed her heel through the slick material of her stockings. She slid her hand
back up to the back of Janet's knee and looked at the dark shadows where
Janet's legs met, where her uniform skirt draped across her thighs.
"Can you walk,
baby?"
"No," Janet
murmured sleepily. Sam bent down and kissed the small of Janet's back. She got
off of her lover, gathered Janet into her arms and
Janet rolled herself until she was right-side up. She pressed her face against
Sam's shoulder, eyes closed, and said, "Where are
we goin'?"
"Bed," Sam said as
she stood up.
Janet nuzzled against Sam's
shirt, seeking out her scent. "Cassie's being
punished."
"Okay," Sam
whispered. She carried Janet down the hall and kicked their daughter's door.
"Lights out! To bed!"
She heard Cassandra grumbling
within, but ignored it. She carried Janet into the bedroom, kicked the door
shut with her foot and lay Janet on the bed. In the darkness, Janet squirmed
against the familiar softness of the bed as Sam's hands moved over her. She was
quickly freed from her undershirt and bra, her skirt, her pantyhose. Sam left
Janet's panties in place and lowered herself on top of her. Janet lazily
accepted Sam's kiss, sucked the tip of her tongue and cupped Sam's breasts
through her blouse.
"You're still
dressed," Janet sighed.
"I know, baby. I have to
go." She kissed down Janet's neck.
"That's not
fair..."
"I know," Sam said.
She slipped between Janet's legs and settled against her. Sam moved aside the
cotton of Janet's panties, cupped Janet with one hand and started to move her
hips in a slow, familiar rhythm. Sam crossed her feet at the ankles, two
fingers inside her lover and kissed the flat part of Janet's chest. Janet's
nipples were hard, her skin hot to the touch.
After a moment, Janet
whimpered and said Sam's name. "Samantha," whispered into her lover's
hair. Sam moved up and kissed Janet's lips, holding her until the tremors from
her climax had faded. Janet was sprawled on the mattress, eyes closed, skin red
from passion. She licked her lips and finally managed to focus on Sam, rising
above her. "I owe you."
Sam grinned. "You
do."
Janet reached out and touched
Sam's face. "You sure you have to go?"
"Less now than I was
five minutes ago," Sam admitted.
"It's been a long time
since you spent the night."
"I know," Sam said.
She brushed Janet's hair out of her face and bent down to kiss her forehead.
She moved her lips to Janet's nose, her eyelids and finally her mouth. Janet
lifted her head into the kiss and sighed when they parted. Sam brushed her
knuckles over Janet's cheek and said, "Get some sleep."
Janet's eyes were already
closed. "Mmm."
"Night, baby. I love
you."
"I love you, too,"
Janet whispered.
Sam drew the blankets up and
over Janet's nearly-naked body. She smoothed down Janet's hair, cupped her
cheek for a moment and then left the bedroom. She walked down the hallway,
paused and then went back. The crack under Cassandra's door lit up, and Sam
knocked quietly. She heard a muttered "Shit" from the other side and
Sam opened the door.
Cassandra was standing to one
side of the doorway, arms crossed, furious expression on her face. She wore a
pair of jean shorts and a white tank top that clearly showed her bra
underneath. If this is what the girl had worn to study with a boy, no wonder
Janet had been so furious. She raised her eyebrow at the outfit and then said,
"So. What happened?"
"I just--"
"Quietly," Sam
hissed. "Your mom is asleep."
Cassie rolled her eyes, but
continued in a quieter voice. "Last week, Mom said I could hang out with
William to study. I was at his house - with his parents there - until almost
nine. I do it this week, come home at seven-thirty, and Mom has a shit-fi-- A, uh..."
Sam nodded her understanding.
"You should've gotten permission to stay out again." Cassie's mouth
dropped, her eyes widening at this betrayal. Sam cut off a rebuttal with a
swipe of her hand. "It's been five years since you nearly died," she
said. "But for Mom, it was yesterday.
She's scared for you. And when you stay out late without calling, her mind
starts filling with all that shit again. You know? Bomb shelters, your heart
stopping... she sees it all clear as a bell. She's trying to protect you from
the outside world and..." she looked at Cassie's outfit again and added,
"...and from making some of the mistakes she did growing up. So maybe cut
her some slack. Use that cell phone she bought you, okay?"
"Yeah, okay,"
Cassie muttered.
Sam stepped into the room and
kissed Cassie's forehead. "Now go to bed. You're still being
punished."
"God," Cassie groaned.
Sam wished her good-night and
slipped out of the room. She walked down the dark hallway and made the rounds,
shutting out the lights Janet had left on and closing the blinds. She left the
house, locking the front door using the key Janet had given her. She stepped
back and looked up at the dark house, feeling a pang of sadness that she was
leaving Janet yet again. She was still horny from taking care of Janet, but if
she had stayed she would never have wanted to leave.
The last time she had spent
the night in Janet's bed had been almost two months earlier. They had worked
into the night examining the Replicator android "Reese" to see how,
exactly, she had been constructed. During the physical exam, Janet had casually
removed the android's top to discover she was naked and anatomically correct
underneath. They had both blushed, and then laughed, and then went about their
work.
By the time they finished,
however, both were well aware of an hour spent looking at a half-naked woman.
Even if she was made of Replicator
bits. They had signed out of the base and Janet had driven them to her house.
They had fucked - there really wasn't a nicer word for it - in the front seat
of Janet's car before resigning to the bedroom. Sam had eventually fallen
asleep in Janet's arms, too exhausted to leave.
Before that, they had often
shared a bed. Usually at Janet's house, because of Cassandra. Sam had found it
easier to just stay when the night was over. But lately... when Daniel died,
Sam had been knocked for a loop. She felt like it was necessary to hunker down,
nest, make sure those she loved knew for damn sure her
feelings for them. Instead, she was becoming a master of creating distance. Janet
deserved better than that.
As she walked to her car, she
made the decision to address her fears with Janet. They would talk it out and,
if Janet had to tie her to the bed to make her stay the night, then that's what
they would do. In fact, if Sam still had those handcuffs... She chuckled and
got behind the wheel of her car.
She could still smell Janet's
scent on her body - shampoo and perfume and sweat - so she sat with her eyes
closed for a moment and enjoyed it. She swallowed, wiped her hand down her face
and smiled at the thought of being on SG-1 with her best friend and lover. It
might be the one good thing to come out of Daniel's death, and she hoped to God
that General Hammond agreed with her.
She finally started the car
and pulled out of the driveway. Just before she turned away from the house, she
saw Cassandra's bedroom light come back on.
Sam shook her head, smiling
to herself as she drove away from the Fraiser homestead.
#
"Fraiser?" O'Neill
asked when Sam brought it up at the briefing. From the look on his face, Sam
figured that he was envisioning Janet following him through the Stargate with a
giant syringe at the ready. Teal'c looked to be considering the idea of the
doctor joining the team. "Janet
Fraiser?" O'Neill expanded.
Sam had recounted the same
reasons she had given to Janet the night before... omitting, of course, the
part about the sexiness of the little back T-shirt. General Hammond looked
ready to consider the possibility. "Janet would be an asset in the
field," Sam continued. "Her medical knowledge is second to
none."
"Which is one of the
reasons I'm inclined to deny your request, Major," Hammond said. "Dr.
Fraiser is needed here on the base."
"I understand, Sir. But
the times we have been in the field waiting for a medical consult... the number
of times a doctor could help us make a connection with alien leaders just by
offering antibiotics and a general physical..."
General Hammond considered it
and said, "I'm willing to give it a chance on a trial basis, if it's all
right with you, Colonel."
"Who is next on the
roster?" O'Neill asked.
Hammond looked down at his
notes. "Dr. Robert Rothman."
O'Neill shuddered and looked
at Sam. "Tell Fraiser she has my blessing."
"And mine," Hammond
added. "Her position will be temporary for the time being. She'll
accompany you on the mission to P5C-921. Should Dr. Fraiser prove to be an
acceptable fit, we'll make the necessary arrangements to make it
permanent."
Sam nodded and smiled.
"Yes, sir. Thank you, sir." She and O'Neill stood as Hammond left.
She looked at her CO and said, "Sir, if you don't mind..."
"It was your idea,"
O'Neill said with a wave of his hand. "You should be the one to tell
her."
Sam grinned, nodded her thanks
to him and hurried to the elevators. On the ride to the infirmary, she thought
of the best way to tell Janet the good news. The elevator doors opened and Sam
entered the infirmary. Janet was standing next to a patient's bed, checking his
vitals, and glanced up when she caught Sam's movement out of the corner of her
eye. She mouthed 'hi,' and Sam gave her a thumb's-up. Janet excused herself and
walked over to Sam. "What's up?"
"You're in. Tomorrow's
mission to P5C-921."
Janet's eyes widened.
"Oh. So soon. I didn't... I'm surprised they agreed to it so
quickly."
"General Hammond and
Colonel O'Neill both needed a bit of convincing," Sam admitted. "But
they came around. All you have to do is try not to kill us and you'll be a
shoo-in."
"No promises," Janet
said. She took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "To be honest, I never
expected them to say yes. I never let myself believe it was true. Now that it's
happening..."
Sam's smile faded. "Do
you want to say no? I didn't tell them I already ran it by you, so..."
"No," Janet said.
She smiled and said, "No. It could be interesting. It will be interesting." She casually brushed Sam's palm with her
hand and said, "Thank you for doing this for me."
Sam squeezed Janet's thumb as
it passed and Janet ducked her chin. "My pleasure," Sam said.
Janet tucked her tongue into
the corner of her mouth and raised her eyebrows, saying everything that needed
saying about 'Sam's pleasure.' Sam laughed and released Janet's thumb.
"Get back to work. I'll see you tonight for dinner?"
"Yeah," Janet said.
She turned and went back to the patient's bedside. Sam backed away to keep from
losing sight of Janet and finally turned a corner. She chuckled at herself and
walked to the elevators with a spring in her step. She stuck her hands into her
pockets and thought, I get to go to work with my girlfriend... She
laughed out loud, startling an airman, and swept her ID card through the
elevator scanner.
#
That night, in the aftermath
of their lovemaking, Janet lay with her head on Sam's chest and whispered,
"Stay the night."
Sam hesitated and then said,
"I have to get to the base." Her breath feathered Janet's hair and
she used her fingers to investigate the strands.
Janet kissed the swell of
Sam's breast and said, "That's twice in a row you've turned me down. I
might start getting a complex."
Sam grinned and kissed
Janet's forehead. "You worried I don't love you as much as I used
to?"
"That you don't
what?"
"Love you," Sam
said.
"Love you, too,"
Janet said. She smiled and moved her lips to Sam's nipple. She circled it with
her tongue as Sam's chuckle turned into a low, drawn-out moan. "That does
bring up an issue..."
Sam groaned, "No, no
issues... sucking and kissing, no thinking..."
Janet said, "I can do
both. I'm smarter than you."
Sam grumbled and ran her
hands down Janet's naked back.
"Will this be a problem?
If, against all odds, Hammond and O'Neill both agree to assign me to SG-1, will
there be an issue with you and me being..."
"No," Sam said. She
thought for a moment, shook her head and repeated, "No, it won't. I can be
objective."
"About me?" Janet
prodded.
Sam hesitated again. "It
won't be easy at first," she said. "But I'll get used to it. We'll be
Major Carter and Major Fraiser when we're on-duty. We'll be teammates,
soldiers, and not women whose thighs have been... where yours is now."
"Where?" Janet
asked. She bent her knee. "Here?"
Sam whimpered. She spread her
legs farther apart and wrapped one around Janet's invading thigh. Janet sat up,
her skin turned blue by the moonlight coming in through the open window. Sam
ran her hands over Janet's stomach, cupped her breast and covered her nipples.
Janet arched her back into the caress and moved her hands over Sam's body.
She counted scars, old wounds,
mementos of violence that Janet had helped stitch up. "Honey," Janet
whispered. She lowered her head and kissed Sam's shoulder, down to her breasts
and her stomach. There was a thin line just to the left of Sam's navel, the
first wound Janet had tended on her lover. The shadow of an injury that, had it happened a few inches higher or to the right, would
have killed Sam before Janet ever met her.
She moved her lips to Sam's
neck and sucked gently as she rocked against Sam. She moved her hands to Sam's
hips to hold her steady and increased her movements. Sam's voice was a hushed
grunt in Janet's ear, and she assaulted Janet's neck with her tongue and teeth.
She bit down when she came and Janet hissed. She whispered, "Not so hard,
baby..."
Sam murmured an apology and
kissed the red flesh. She moved her lips to Janet's chin and eventually found
her mouth. They moaned, hands roaming, and Janet finally slid away from Sam.
She stretched out next to her lover, head on her shoulder again, and drew lines
on Sam's naked stomach. She dipped her finger into Sam's navel and said,
"I'm scared."
"It's okay." She
kissed Janet's forehead and said, "Everyone is scared the first
time."
"I've been through the
Stargate before."
"As a doctor. Not as a
member of a military team."
Janet made a non-committal
noise and closed her eyes. "You really have to go back to the base?"
Sam nodded. "I can stay
until you fall asleep, though."
Janet slid closer to Sam and
closed her eyes. Sam stroked her hair, her back, down to the small of her back.
"Sam," she whispered.
"Janet?"
"I love you."
Sam smiled and pressed her
hand against the small of Janet's back. "I love you, too." She
settled against the mattress, her hand moving slowly across Janet's back, and
stared at the ceiling until she felt her lover drift off to sleep.
#
Sam pushed open the locker
room door and stopped dead in her tracks. Janet was standing between the bench
and the locker wearing only her black uniform T-shirt and her socks. She had
her back to the door, the tail of her shirt rumpled from being tucked in. She
was rooting in her locker for something and didn't acknowledge when the door
opened. Sam let the door shut and pressed her shoulder against it.
"Well," she sighed. Janet jumped and looked over her shoulder.
"I hope you make the team, just so I can enjoy this sight."
Janet turned back to her
locker with a smile. "If you spent the night once in a while, you could
enjoy it every morning." She turned again and noted Sam's mussed hair and
the pillow lines on her face. "Did you just wake up?"
"That's why I spend the
night pre-mission on-base," Sam said on her way to the shower. She stayed
under the spray just long enough to get her hair and skin wet, passed a bar of
soap from one hand to the other for ceremony, and quickly dried off. She
blow-dried her hair, wrapped a towel around herself and went back to the
lockers.
Janet had spent the time
getting more clothes on. The pair of gray boxer shorts sticking out from under
her shirt quickly vanished as she tugged the green BDUs
up over her ass. Sam opened her own locker and gave Janet a quick once-over.
"You look very good in that uniform."
"Thank you," Janet
said. She removed her jacket from the locker and dropped it on the bench. Sam
dropped her towel and Janet froze for half a beat, taking in the curves of
Sam's body before she turned back to her locker. She reached inside and
muttered, "It's going to be a problem..."
Sam said, "Did you say
something?"
"I said it's going to be
a problem. Working alongside you and not..." She cleared her throat.
Sam smiled and withdrew her
underwear from the locker. "We manage to work on-base together."
"Yeah, but on-base
you're not all... butch."
Sam laughed out loud. She
pulled on her underwear and said, "I'll try to tone it down for you."
"I'd appreciate
it."
Sam chuckled again.
"Butch. So... when I'm on the base, I'm feminine?"
"Well, more feminine then when you're strapping
on guns," Janet said with a sparkle in her eye.
"Says the woman who
wears skirts and high heels to work." She looked at Janet, in her BDUs with a pair of combat boots sitting unlaced under the
bench. "Talk about butch..."
Janet blushed and reiterated,
"It's going to be a problem."
Sam covered up with her own
black shirt, and bent down to pull on her trousers. "When you get accepted
onto the team, we'll take Teal'c and Colonel O'Neill out to dinner and explain
things to them. We'll tell them about you and me."
Janet turned.
"Seriously?"
"It would take the
pressure off. It would make it easier to shift between the two extremes,
wouldn't it? If we didn't have to hide it."
"Yeah," Janet said.
"I'm just shocked you're considering coming out."
"To Colonel O'Neill and
Teal'c," Sam quantified. "I mean, we've been a team for five years. It's
not going to be a world-shaking revelation to tell them I'm in love with a
woman. As for you..."
Janet frowned. "As for
me, what?"
Sam shrugged and said,
"Well..."
"What?" Janet asked
again. A blush rose in her cheeks and she said, "Do they know?"
"Daniel knew."
"What?"
"He asked me once
off-world," Sam admitted.
"Was he...
interested?"
"No," Sam said.
"He was just curious about who on-base might be gay. You were brought up
as a potential." She turned and said, "I didn't confirm or deny. But
he seemed pretty convinced that you were."
Janet sat down and put on her
boots. "Was he...?"
"Bisexual," Sam
said.
"Huh," Janet said.
She laced up her boots, stood and reached into her locker again. "Okay,
I'll see you in the Gate Room."
Sam said, "Oka--" She stopped and laughed when she saw what Janet
had just put on. "Who on Earth told you to wear that?"
Janet's eyes were large and
innocent beneath the rim of her helmet. "Colonel O'Neill..."
Sam walked over, undid the
helmet's strap and lifted it off Janet's head. She smoothed down her lover's
hair and said, "It's not necessary on this mission. Only when we expect to
be under fire."
"Oh," Janet said.
"Well, then, what..."
Sam reached into the locker,
rooted around and withdrew an olive green baseball cap. She plopped it on
Janet's head and pulled the brim down over her eyes. "There you go."
"Thanks," Janet
groused.
Sam chuckled and went back to
her own locker. Janet adjusted her hat and carried her vest to the locker room
door. "I'll see you in the Gate Room."
"Okay," Sam said.
She waited until the door was closed again before she went back to getting
geared up.
#
Janet felt self-conscious as
she walked through the corridors of the SGC, her vest weighing on her shoulders
and her boots heavy on her feet. She nodded to everyone she passed and felt
like a fraud, a little girl playing dress-up in Mommy's clothes. It didn't help
that the uniform was just slightly too big for her. She was worried about the
sleeves falling down and covering her hands, completing the illusion.
Colonel O'Neill and Teal'c
were already waiting in the Gate Room, and both turned when Janet walked in. The
men looked as if they had been having a conversation that ended abruptly as
soon as she arrived. "Major Carter is on her way," she reported. She
stood next to Teal'c and looked up at him. "Morning."
"Good morning, Dr.
Fraiser."
O'Neill said, "Not quite
the same look as a lab jacket, but it'll do in a pinch."
Janet twisted her mouth in a
rueful smile. "Gee, thanks, Colonel."
Sam arrived then and gave an
apologetic nod to the control room. O'Neill said, "'Bout time, Carter.
You're stepping on my tricks."
"Sorry, sir," Sam
said. She stopped next to Janet and faced the Stargate as it began to dial. She
looked down at Janet and said, "Any questions before we go?"
"What's P5C-921
like?"
"I'm guessing
trees," O'Neill said from the opposite end of the line. "Lots and...
lots of trees. Evergreens, most likely. Terraforming
Goa'ulds loved evergreens. And why
not, I say. If it's good enough for the car air freshener people, why not for
the rest of the galaxy?"
Janet smirked and said,
"I can't wait, sir."
The Stargate erupted and
Janet looked at it with newfound awe. She had seen it dozens of times, but this
time she was seeing it as an SG team member. It was like watching the thing
with completely new eyes. O'Neill and Teal'c started up the ramp, but Sam
waited to bring up the rear. "It's just like always," Sam said under
her breath. "Nothing different." Her hand brushed Janet's as she
continued up the ramp. She turned, backlit by the event horizon, and stepped
through.
Janet took one last deep
breath of Earth air and closed her eyes as she went through the Gate, the potential
fourth member of SG-1.
As it turned out, O'Neill was
wrong; there were no evergreens in sight. The land around the Stargate was
sandy and dark, pockmarked in places with scraggly bushes. A few yards out of
the clearing was the start of a dark forest of the sort written about in fairy tales. The bases of the trees were hidden by tall, thick
grass that looked like stalks of wheat. The sky was filled with thickly-packed
clouds that hung so low Janet felt like she could reach up and grab one. A warm
wind blew against her, and she closed her eyes and inhaled the scent of the
alien world.
When she opened her eyes, she
saw that Colonel O'Neill and Sam were milling about the DHD. The MALP stood to
one side, casting a dark shadow across the sand. Janet tilted her head to the
sky to see where the sunlight was coming from and finally saw a pale yellow
glow through the clouds. "Okay, folks. The MALP was met by a lovely young
man named Tree-Knot--"
"Trenauck,"
Teal'c corrected."
"Right," O'Neill said.
He looked at Janet for a long moment before he turned and gestured to what
Janet presumed to be the west. "His village is about six klicks that-a-way... Now remember the rules. Don't feed the
animals. Keep your limbs inside the car at all times, and don't taunt the rhinos."
Janet joined the rest of the
team as O'Neill led the way down a winding path through the trees. Sam started
out next to Teal'c, but soon fell back and started walking next to Janet.
"Major," Janet said.
"Major," Sam
repeated with a smirk. "How are you enjoying your first official
mission?"
"So far, so good,"
Janet said. She looked at the backs of O'Neill and Teal'c and quietly said,
"The Colonel seems unlike himself. Are you sure he's all right?"
Sam shrugged. "Seems
fine to me. I'm sure he's just trying to come to terms with you being on his
team. He's invested a lot into being afraid of you and your needles."
Janet chuckled and said,
"Yeah, that's gotta be it."
Through the trees on either
side of the path, they could see golden stalks of the grass forming a wall thick
enough to look solid. The stalks occasionally rustled with the stealthy
movement of creatures within, taking a peek at the new arrivals before
disappearing back into the safety of their dens. "What time is it
here?" Janet asked, trying to check the sky through the trees.
"We didn't get an exact
reading on the MALP," Sam said, "but the positioning of the planet in
the solar system suggests it has a seventeen-hour day. I'd say we're closing in
on dusk."
Janet gave a mirthless
chuckle. "Great. Just in time for all the night-crawling beasties to come
out and play..."
Sam pressed her lips together
and Janet knew the unspoken thought: "They'll
have to get through me first, babe. Trust that." Janet nudged Sam to
let her know the message was received. The followed a bend in the path and
Teal'c held up a hand to stop their progress. His head was turned to the right,
and he stepped slightly off the path.
O'Neill said, "T?"
"I believe someone is...
singing, O'Neill."
They stood still and listened
and, after a moment, they all heard what had caught Teal'c's attention. Teal'c
stepped off the path and brushed aside the wheat stalks with his hand. On just
the plant screen, they saw a man crouched over a smoldering pit. He held his
hands palm-out over the embers, thin fingers spread to let the smoke feather
between them. He was bare-chested and sweating, his long, thin face slack. His
lips slowly formed the words Teal'c had heard, not a song but a low chant.
The man was young, but his
hair was pure white and pulled back in a tight topknot. He seemed to be aware
he was no longer alone, but he finished his chant before slowly opening his
eyes. He turned and looked at the strangers on the other side of the clearing.
He rose with pained slowness and stretched to work the kinks from his muscles. He
stared at each of them in turn, his eyes hard with what Janet thought might be
contempt or anger. "You are those from the other side," he said.
"Yes," O'Neill
said. "Colonel Jack O'Neill, Teal'c... Majors Sam Carter and Janet
Fraiser."
The man seemed uninterested
in their names, focusing his attention on Teal'c. "I am Trenauck. I believe I spoke to your leader... a General
Hammond? He informed me of your desire to visit our village. I have spent the
time since in meditation."
O'Neill raised an eyebrow.
"We made contact two days ago."
"Yes," Trenauck said. He stepped away from the fire and smothered
it with sand. He gestured to the path and spoke in a resigned voice.
"Please, allow me to escort you to our village."
As he passed between Teal'c
and Sam, Janet noticed the man was almost dangerously emaciated and his skin
was pale. That made sense, she supposed, for someone who had just spent two
days meditating in a dark forest. O'Neill took the lead, following the man down
the path. Trenauck wore only a pair of baggy canvas
trousers. His bare feet moved confidently across the path, oblivious of the stones
or twigs he stepped on.
They walked for what felt
like ages, and Janet was afraid she would have to request a break. But finally,
the forest began to tape off and she saw the village. The spaces between the
trees began to grow wider until they came to a narrow strip of land that had
been cultivated for crops. Despite the lateness of the hour, she could see a
few workers still tilling the soil. "What's the name of this
village?" Sam asked. Now that Daniel was gone, someone had to ask the sort
of unnecessary-but-good-to-know questions.
"A'bayal,"
Trenauck said. His voice had a bit of grief in it, as
if the town was a painful memory. Sam glanced at Janet to see if she had heard
the undercurrent, and Janet nodded to confirm she had.
At the first house, the path
suddenly became paved with cobblestones. Janet scanned the alien life all
around her. People stood in doorways to converse with friends. In a row of
three-story houses, two young men sat in second-story windows with their bare
feet dangling out over the street. They leaned forward to talk, hands gripping
the sills so they wouldn't fall. Every conversation stalled as the villagers
became aware of the strangers in their midst.
O'Neill muttered, "Maybe
he could have postponed his little meditation marathon long enough to warn
these folks we were on our way."
By the time they reached the
town square, a man dressed in what appeared to be a green robe approached them.
He was balding, but still had two tufts of gold-white hair on either side of
his head. He was rotund, like a beardless caricature of Santa Claus, and he
held his arms out in greeting as he approached. He kept his eyes on Trenauck for a long, uncomfortable moment and then gave the
team a quick once-over. "Whom have you brought to us, Trenauck?"
"They traveled through
the ring from the other side," Trenauck said.
The robed man inhaled sharply
and looked at the strangers again. "Well, that is quite a thing. Please,
come... we have much to discuss." He waved for them to follow and started
to walk away.
The team started to follow,
and then O'Neill noticed Trenauck was backing away.
"You're not coming with?"
The robed man tensed, but Trenauck saved him from refusing to invite him. "I
will not. I have other responsibilities to attend." He bowed to the robed
man in a way that seemed condescending to Janet. He straightened, turned to the
team and brushed his fingertips across his forehead, then down to his cheek in
a peculiar gesture of respect or dismissal.
The robed man watched Trenauck go with a measure of distaste, shook his head as
if to clear it and then focused on the team. He forced a smile. "My name
is Craw'uel. I am the patron of this village. Trenauck has told you the story of this village...?"
"Just the name,"
O'Neill said. "Ab... abseil."
"A'bayal,"
Sam corrected.
"Right."
Craw'uel nodded and said, "He is correct. In an ancient
tongue, it means 'gateway.' Only through this village can one access the
distant ring. Many pilgrims have come to us, however they
usually arrive from the opposite direction."
"No one has ever come
here through the, ah, ring?" O'Neill said. He glanced at Sam and raised an
eyebrow. "Goa'uld-free. Always a plus, in my book."
They reached a stone house
tucked in an alley between two tall apartment buildings. The windows were
painted bright yellow, and smoke rose from twin chimneys in the ceiling. Craw'uel opened the door for them and said, "Please,
enter, enjoy our hospitality. We are quite eager to hear of life on the other
side."
O'Neill doffed his cap as he
stepped into the building. The ground floor was one room, separated by pillars
into separate sections. On the opposite side of the room from the door, a long
table was littered with what appeared to be maps and charts. Craw'uel hurried ahead and cleared the maps. Sam was able
to see markings on one map, along with corresponding marks on a sheet of paper Craw'uel didn't take away. From what she could tell, he was
marking the demographics of where the pilgrims the town had hosted had come
from.
"Please, please, have a
seat," he said. O'Neill and Teal'c sat at the corners, with Sam and Janet
between them. Craw'uel pulled a chair from another
table, placed it on the opposite side. As he lowered himself into the seat, he
smiled at the newcomers. "I apologize, I have
forgotten your names..."
"You never heard
them," O'Neill said. He went through the introductions again, and then
said, "We're from the SGC. On a planet called Earth, country called the United
States of America, state called... Colorado. City..." He trailed off and
cleared his throat.
Craw'uel nodded enthusiastically. "Yes,
and what is this 'Earth' like?"
"Which part?"
O'Neill said. "It's a smorgasbord, really... deserts, oceans - lots of
those - forests. Not so many of those, anymore... You want it, we got it."
"'A land where your every desire can be met, and a land
can be found for every need.'"
"Yes," O'Neill
said. Then he frowned. "Wait, what?"
Craw'uel looked expectantly at Sam. "It is a quote. From
the Book."
"Oh, joy," O'Neill
said. "There's a Book. And that sounded like a capital B, right?"
"You do not know the
Book of Abrilen," Craw'uel
said. "Oh. It... it was discovered not long after
we discovered the stone ring. It spoke of the power of the ring, describing it
in such a way that we never dared attempt to operate it. It told of thriving
civilizations... powerful, hungry for domination, and we did not wish to tempt
fate."
"Probably wise,"
O'Neill said.
Craw'uel sighed and leaned back. "I apologize. It is late
and I am tired. Perhaps we could discuss this in further detail in the morning
when we have had a chance to rest."
"Sounds fine to
us," O'Neill said. He pushed his chair back and stood, the rest of SG-1
rising with him. "If there's a place we can set up camp..."
"Camp?" Craw'uel said. "Ah! You wish for a place to
sleep?" O'Neill nodded. "We would be honored to host you as valued
guests of the city leaders. There are vacant rooms next door which you can make
use of. Come, I will show you." He gathered his robe and led them back out
of the meeting hall.
Outside, the sun had set. The
sky was a mixture of purple and red, and a heavy moon was rising above the
treetops outside of the village. Janet walked next to Teal'c with her eyes
turned to the sky, and smiled when she caught him looking at her. "I don't
get to see alien nights very often."
He smiled and tilted his chin
in acknowledgement.
Craw'uel led them into the apartment building next to the
meeting hall. The front hallway was wide, decorated only by a staircase that
led up to a second and third level. Craw'uel gripped
the railing and led them up. "There are only three rooms available; I hope
that is acceptable..."
"That's fine,"
O'Neill said. "We can do boys and girls this time."
Sam smirked and said,
"I'll finally have a roommate."
"You didn't sleep alone
because you're a woman, Carter," O'Neill said. "You sleep alone
because you snore."
Sam glanced over her shoulder
and briefly met Janet's eyes. Janet knew exactly what Sam was thinking; she was
thinking it, too. No, Colonel, she
thought. No, she doesn't. But you
wouldn't know that, would you?
Craw'uel stopped next to a door on the second level. He gestured
to the door in front of him and the one next to it. "These two shall
suffice, I believe...?"
O'Neill stepped into the
doorway of one and nodded. "Yeah, looks okay. We appreciate it."
"It is our honor," Craw'uel said with a bow. "I will come retrieve you in
the morning and we will discuss the Book of Abrilen
in greater detail. Do you require sustenance?"
"We have
provisions," Sam said.
"Very well." He
brushed his fingers across his forehead in the same gesture Trenauck
had used. Then he bowed, gathered his robe and stepped back from the door.
"I wish you a long and dream-filled rest. Sirs. Ladies."
"Thank you," Sam
said. They waited until the leader had disappeared down the stairs before they
huddled between the doors of their rooms.
O'Neill watched the man sway
from side to side as he went down the stairs and then he looked at Sam. "Well,
this is a nice change of pace, dealing with friendly and accommodating aliens.
I don't trust it."
Sam smiled. "I thought that
was the point, sir. A nice, friendly mission to get Janet's feet wet."
"Oh, you mean all alien
worlds aren't like this?" Janet said, feigning shock. "For a second
there, I was starting to think all you SG teams were living it up like lords
and then faking injuries to keep me busy."
O'Neill said, "We would
never do that, Doctor. We're too afraid of your needles." He flipped open
the cover of his watch and then flipped it shut again. "It's afternoon
back on Earth... Carter, when is morning on this planet?"
"Just an estimate, but I
would say we have about... four or five hours before sunrise."
"All right, well...
might as well grab a nap while we can. Let's hit the sack. We'll let Cruella set the wake-up call. Sleep well, kids. Have a good
first night off-world, Dr. Fraiser."
Janet smiled. "Thank
you, sir."
They split up and went into
their separate rooms. Janet went into the room first and unfastened her vest.
The room was cramped; a dining room table stood next to the door, and two beds
flanked a shuttered window. An open door revealed restroom facilities, but no
tub or shower. Janet shrugged out of her vest and jacket and tossed them onto
the bed. She was about to say something when Sam pressed up against her from
behind. "Sa--" Sam's hand covered her mouth.
"Sh, sh," Sam
breathed in her ear. They could hear O'Neill saying something to Teal'c in the
next room. "The walls are thin," she breathed against Janet's ear.
She moved her hand from Janet's mouth down to her breast. She caressed Janet
through her bra and T-shirt and Janet closed her eyes. Her fingers skimmed down
the smooth cotton and she untucked the shirt an inch at a time. When Janet's
stomach was exposed, Sam slid her hand inside along the warm flesh.
Janet reached back with her
hands, crossing her wrists behind her back and pressing her palms against the
crotch of Sam's trousers. As Sam's hand trailed up under Janet's shirt, Janet
eased down Sam's zipper. She worked her hand into Sam's pants and touched her.
Sam gasped, her breath sharp and quick against the
shell of Janet's ear. Sam's other hand went down to Janet's crotch and cupped
her through her pants.
They rocked against each
other, Sam pressed tight against Janet's back, fingers doing all the work.
Janet turned her head and Sam kissed her hard. Janet moaned into Sam's mouth
and Sam again admonished, "Shhh..."
"Sam," Janet
whispered.
Sam's tongue brushed Janet's
bottom lip as her fingers tightened between Janet's legs. Janet squeezed her
thighs together, trapping Sam's hand as her own fingers pushed aside Sam's
panties and found slick flesh. Sam grunted and Janet opened her eyes to see
Sam's were pressed tightly shut. Janet sucked the tip of Sam's tongue into her
mouth and pressed herself against Sam's hand.
Sam tightened her hand on
Janet's breast when she came. She pinched Janet's nipple and Janet had to bite
the inside of her cheek to keep from crying out. They kissed until Sam's
breathing returned to normal, and then Sam peppered Janet's face with small,
quick kisses. "Thank you," she whispered against Janet's cheek.
"Did you come?"
"Yes," Janet lied.
She didn't want to force Sam to return the favor; the idea of getting caught
was a thrill, but she wasn't going to push her luck.
They separated and
straightened their clothes. Sam took off her jacket and tossed it onto the bed.
She sat down and bent down to untie her boots. Janet brushed her hands away and
knelt in front of her. Sam leaned back and watched as Janet unlaced her boots
and removed them with tenderness. She rolled Sam's socks down, kissed her ankle
and then straightened. Sam brushed Janet's hair with one hand and whispered,
"You want to tempt fate again?"
"No," Janet
whispered. She kissed the inside of Sam's wrist and said, "I just always
wanted to do that for you... taking off your boots after a long mission. Giving
you a bit of relief. The real fantasy involved a foot bath, followed by a nice
long massage, but..."
The tears in Sam's eyes
glistened in the darkness. "Well, a fantasy to remember for later,"
Sam said. She brushed her thumb over Janet's cheek. "We should get to bed.
Five hours isn't much."
"Said the woman who
frequently tries to get away with only half that..." Janet grinned and
kissed Sam's eyelids. "Night."
"Night," Sam said
with a grin.
Janet stood and sat on her
own bed to remove her shoes and socks. She pulled her arms into her T-shirt,
undid her bra and pulled it off. She tucked it into her right boot and looked
up to see Sam staring at her with a slack-jawed expression on her face.
"What?" Janet mouthed.
Sam mouthed back, "I
think I just came again."
Janet blushed and waved her
away. Out loud, she said, "It's more comfortable sleeping without
it." She straightened her shirt over her breasts and stretched out on top
of the mattress. She crossed her feet and laced her fingers over her stomach.
She stared at the ceiling and listened to the sounds of the alien village
outside her window. Something popped a few streets over, followed by sounds of
laughter. Wooden wheels grated over the cobblestones, like a stick being
dragged down a washboard. The moon was bright, casting a peculiar red-orange
glow into their borrowed bedroom.
Suddenly, she realized that
she and Sam were spending the night in the same room but in separate beds. She
turned her head to comment on this to Sam, only to discover her lover was fast
asleep. Sam's hand was by her face, fingers curled next to her eyes. Her mouth
was slack, the white of her teeth glinting in the darkness. Her eyelashes were
dark against her cheeks. Janet just wanted to cross the room, get under the
covers with her... hold her and feel her breath against her skin. But she
wouldn't do that. She couldn't, not off-world.
She looked at the ceiling
again and tried to sleep, but the strangeness of the alien world kept intruding
on her mind. She heard voices and only when she heard her name did she realize
it was Teal'c and O'Neill speaking in the next room. She slid across the
mattress and focused on their words.
"--best candidate?"
Teal'c was saying.
"I didn't say
that," O'Neill replied.
"This mission has
certainly been... easier than with any of the other possibilities."
She could hear Teal'c more
clearly because of the timbre of his voice, and she thought O'Neill was in the
bed on the other side of the wall from her. We
only knew the walls were thin because we heard them, Janet realized. They didn't hear us, so they don't know.
She thought about ignoring the conversation, but her curiosity won out.
"It's more comfortable,
sure," O'Neill said. "But there's comfortable and then there's..."
"Do you not believe
Janet Fraiser is worthy of a place on SG-1?"
"She fits in,
sure," O'Neill admitted. "It's just the principle of the thing."
A pause, and then O'Neill elaborated, "If she gets assigned, then half of
the team would be made up of women. It's not a misogynist thing. It's a
military thing. Leading a team with two women, even if they are both military... it's weird. Captain
Matheson was bad enough, but she didn't have what it took anyway. Fraiser...
Fraiser is competent. I think she could fit in here. It's just... ah, hell, I
don't know."
Janet sank back against the
pillow and closed her eyes. The conversation continued in the next room, but
she didn't want to hear it. She was going to be rejected just because O'Neill
didn't want two women on his team? She wouldn't have believed he had it in him
if she hadn't heard it with her own ears. But that would explain his behavior
around her. He didn't want her on his team and he couldn't think of a good
reason to keep her off.
Fine. She would let him off
the hook. In the morning, she would tell him that she was going to turn down
any request to join an off-world team. She would cite loyalty to the infirmary,
a dedication to remaining CMO. She wouldn't let herself be held back just because
she was a woman, damn it. She rolled onto her side and pressed the pillow
against her face to catch her tears.
#
Sam woke when the sun was
still low in the sky and the room was filled with shadows. She sat up and
blinked across the room at Janet. She was lying in bed, curled on her side and
flicking a piece of blanket between her thumb and forefinger. "Morning,"
Sam said, her voice raspy. "Or, I guess early afternoon, Earth-time. Did
you sleep?"
"No," Janet said.
"Hey, what's
wrong?" Sam got off her bed and knelt next to Janet's. She felt her
lover's forehead and said, "You're not sick..."
Janet sat up and brushed away
Sam's hand. "No. I'm fine."
"Janet, what is
it?"
"I'm not going to be a
member of SG-1. I'll tell Colonel O'Neill today."
Sam frowned. "What?
Janet, you're... you're fitting in. Is this about what we did last night?"
"No," Janet said. "Last
night was great. But I don't... Colonel O'Neill will never recommend me. I want
to get out now, on my own terms, before he has a chance to turn me down. It
will look better on my record."
Sam nodded. "If you're
sure."
"Thank you for the
opportunity, Sam, and thank you for having faith in me," Janet said.
"But I just... it's not going to happen."
Sam kissed Janet's lips
softly and said, "Okay."
"I love you," Janet
said.
Sam smiled. "I love you,
too. Let's go wake up the boys."
Janet nodded and Sam stepped
back to let her get out of bed. Sam combed her hair as Janet pulled on her
boots, pausing to take her brassiere out of the one, and stood. Sam watched as
Janet put her hands back inside her shirt and put the bra back on. Sam stepped
behind her, lifted Janet's shirt and hooked the bra for her. "Just for the
record, I enjoy undoing these
better."
Janet smiled over her
shoulder. "Yeah, yeah." She put on her jacket, but not her vest. She
followed Sam out of the room and waited as she knocked on the door to O'Neill
and Teal'c's room. She didn't know how she was going to face them after what
she had overheard. The idea of spending the day with Jack O'Neill while he
thought of ways to reject her. It would be like dating in high school all over
again.
The door opened and Teal'c
bowed a greeting to them. "Colonel O'Neill is still getting
prepared."
"I'm ready, damn
it," O'Neill said. Behind Teal'c, she could see his mop of graying hair as
he pulled his boots on with a groan. He stood, hooked his jacket on two fingers
and covered his hair with a cap. He blinked at Sam and Janet and said,
"Ladies... I don't suppose you have a shower in your room...?"
"Sorry, sir," Sam
said.
He exhaled and looked down
the stairs. "Any sign of Crawl-Lou?"
"Craw'uel,"
Sam and Teal'c said simultaneously. Sam said, "Not yet, sir."
He pressed his lips together
and said, "Well... let's go see if city hall is open for business yet.
Hopefully there's a breakfast buffet..."
They went down the stairs and
found that the ground floor of their temporary accommodations had transformed
overnight. Tables were set up with flat snack cakes, small jars of spreadable jams, bunches of berries and grapes in wicker
baskets. O'Neill paused an eyed the spread. A woman on the opposite side of the
table said, "You are the visitors?" Her eyes were wide with awe, her
lower lip trembling.
"That would be us. I
guess," O'Neill admitted.
The woman gathered a handful
of the spread she was selling and held it out. "For you. A gift. From the
people of A'bayal."
"Well, thank you,"
O'Neill said. He took it and sniffed. "Smells of elderberries. Some of
these crackers...?"
The woman gathered some crackers
from the next station and handed them over. The crackers looked like pale
cousins to the Ritz brand from Earth, only they were as large as flattened
cakes and bore a passing resemblance to breaded DVDs. O'Neill thanked the woman
and handed the crackers to Sam and Teal'c. He held out a third to Janet, who
hesitated before she took it. He noted her hesitation and reluctance to meet
his eyes. "You okay, Fraiser?" O'Neill asked. "Not hungry?"
"I'm fine, sir,"
Janet said.
He kept his eyes on her for a
moment and then passed around the jar. They each applied a bit of the jam to
their crackers using their fingers. O'Neill dipped his pinky into the jar when
he got it back and tasted. "Hum. Not bad... not the Continental Breakfast
at the Hilton, but it'll do in a pinch."
Teal'c ate his cracker, and
Sam nibbled at hers citing an upset stomach, but Janet truly wasn't hungry. She
also wasn't in the mood to eat something O'Neill had given her. She wrapped her
cracker in a napkin, smearing the jam as she did, and tucked it into the pocket
of her jacket as they left the lobby of the apartment building. The city seemed
fully aware of the guests in their midst; pedestrians stopped in mid-stride
across the street, and Janet felt countless eyes on them. "Is it always like
this?"
"No," O'Neill said.
"Sometimes there's gawking."
Janet didn't even crack a
smile. She turned and spotted Craw'uel walking toward
them in a new, purple robe. His white-blonde hair was standing up in tufts, his
hands toying nervously with the belt of his robe. He smiled when he saw the
team standing outside the hotel and lifted one hand in a nervous wave.
"Hey, Trenauck," O'Neill said. Janet turned and saw their
guide from the night before was also walking toward them. He looked as if he
hadn't slept the night before either, his topknot loose and spilling his white
hair over his eyes. He was dressed in a loose-fitting brown jacket that was partially
buttoned over his bare chest. He was carrying a book in one hand.
Craw'uel started when he saw Trenauck
walking toward them. "What are you doing here, Trenauck?"
he asked. "You were specifically told..."
Trenauck ignored the village leader and lifted the book in his
hand. "The Book of Abrilen, Section Eight, Paragraph Three!" he shouted as he stalked forward.
"You will cease
this!" Craw'uel shouted, a hint of desperation
and fear creeping into his voice.
Trenauck continued as if Craw'uel
hadn't spoken. He brandished the book like a weapon. "'The strangers shall
come. Unholy visitors from the other side of the ring shall come, and with
them... oblivion! Destruction! Death!'" He ripped open his jacket to
reveal a flashing black box attached to his belt.
O'Neill and Sam immediately
brought up their weapons. "There's always one," O'Neill muttered. He
raised his voice and said, "All right. Calm down..."
Trenauck kept his eyes locked on SG-1, spittle flecking his
lips as he snarled at them. "I have fasted... meditated, and I have come
to determine that this is the correct course of action. I must cleanse this
town before you destroy it."
"Hold!" O'Neill
shouted. He gestured with the P-90. "I don't want to use this!"
"This world is not
yours!"
"Trenauck,
no!" Craw'uel rushed forward, getting between
O'Neill and the white-haired man.
"Damn it," O'Neill
said. He stepped forward and grabbed the back of Craw'uel's
robe. "Get out of the--"
The concussion from the
explosion hit Janet before the sound. She was knocked off her feet and felt
Sam's body collide with hers. Sam's elbow dug into Janet's stomach and forced
the wind from her lungs. Janet felt an intense heat on her face, followed by a
wash of tiny pebbles. She hit the ground, her head bouncing off the
cobblestones when she landed. Her ears were ringing and she was aware that Sam
was a dead - no, not dead... just
unconscious, please God - weight on top of her.
She put her hands on Sam's
shoulders and, in the ringing silence, had a flashback to the many nights she
had performed the same maneuver with Sam in their bed. She tenderly placed Sam
on her back on the ground, fully aware of the blood marking her lover's cheek
and forehead. But they had been farthest from Trenauck,
they had suffered the least. She turned and saw Teal'c struggling to his feet
through a cloud of red-brown dust.
The epicenter of the blast
was gone. Colonel O'Neill... oh, God, no...
Janet quickly scanned the area and spotted a crumpled mass of blood-stained green
that she recognized as an SG uniform. She got to her feet and ran a few steps
before her legs gave out. She thought she called his name and half-crawled the
rest of the way to his side.
Craw'uel - or rather, the blackened remains of Craw'uel - lay to one side, his robes still smoldering. It
seemed he had taken the brunt of the explosion and protected O'Neill from a
similar fate. Janet rolled the colonel onto his back and was stunned to see he
was covered with blood. It caked his face and hair, soaked into his uniform. When
she said, "Colonel!" she heard only the hollow echo of her voice. Her
hearing was coming back, thank God. O'Neill opened his eyes - impossibly brown
and white amid all the crimson - and focused on her.
"Where does it
hurt?" she asked, and focused on his lips. She read 'right leg... arm,
skull, right shoulder...' and said, "Anyplace that doesn't hurt, sir?"
The corner of his mouth
twitched and he either said 'no' or 'nose.'
She felt a hand on her back
and turned to see Teal'c standing behind her. "Check on Sam!" she
told him. He nodded and disappeared. Janet took a moment to check the street.
The survivors of the blast were shrieking; pandemonium reigned. Janet could
hear a bit more now; the calls of survivors to those who may have been lost,
the shrieks of pain from those caught in the blast... and above it all, sirens.
She didn't know where they were coming from, but she hoped they were attached
to ambulances.
She moved down O'Neill's side
and let her hands search for anything broken. Nothing on his torso, his arms
were all right. He could move his fingers and feet when she prompted him. She
moved her hands down and gripped his thighs, skating
her hands down to his calves. She had almost reached his right boot when his
body jerked and he cried out.
Broken leg. Okay, no problem...
"--tor
Fraiser!"
Janet turned at the sound of
Teal'c's voice. She had no idea how long he had been calling her. He was
crouched next to Sam, who still hadn't regained consciousness. Now positive
that most of the blood covering O'Neill was all that remained of Craw'uel, she abandoned him and ran back to her lover. Her
hearing was improving with every heartbeat, but she was starting to miss the
silence. She stumbled on the cobblestones - which had been torn apart by the
force of the explosion, and hit her knees next to Sam's feet. The knee of her trousers
tore and she felt the numb sting of a cut on her leg. She ignored it and
crawled up Sam's body.
"She is
unresponsive," Teal'c said, his hand on Sam's
shoulder.
"Goddamn it, Sam, don't
do this..." She cupped Sam's head in her hand and used her thumb to lift
the eyelid. "Teal'c, my kit! It's... fuck, it's upstairs in my room."
Teal'c was on his feet and running as soon as she finished speaking. Janet,
perched on top of Sam as she had been so many times before, cradled her head.
She looked into Sam's slack face and said, "Don't. Do not do this. Do you
hear me? I will not forgive you." Tears burned her eyes and she brushed
her thumbs over Sam's cheeks.
Teal'c returned with her
medical kit in record time and dropped it at Janet's side. She tore it open
and, as she withdrew her gloves, she heard Sam's quiet murmur. She turned and
looked down at her. "Sam? Sam, honey, are you
there?"
"Head," Sam gasped.
Janet snapped her gloves in
place and moved her hands around Sam's head. She felt for fractures, for open
wounds, and found nothing. She did, however, find a rather large bump.
"You hit your head," Janet reported. "What else hurts?"
"Everything..."
Janet moved off of Sam's
waist and examined her more thoroughly. She interrogated Sam about what hurt
and what didn't, what was tender. She asked Sam if she knew her name and the
year, both of which Sam answered positively. Her main fears assuaged for the
moment, Janet said, "Sam, I have to go check on Colonel O'Neill now, okay?
Honey? I'm going to leave you with Teal'c."
"Okay," Sam rasped.
She moved her hand to Janet's and clutched it for a moment. "Love
you."
"I love you, too,
Sam," Janet said, fully aware of Teal'c at her side. A time like this,
when death had gotten so close, she wasn't going to waste words being cautious.
She bent down and kissed Sam's lips tenderly before she rose and put her hand
on Teal'c's shoulder. "Keep her conscious. I'm fairly certain she doesn't
have a concussion, but I want to be absolutely sure."
Teal'c nodded his understanding,
apparently unphased by the kiss he had witnessed. Janet picked up her medical
bag and dragged it back to O'Neill's side. She knelt next to him and said,
"Hi, sir. How are you feeling?"
"Much... better. Ready
to run, ugh..."
Janet smiled and said,
"Just lie still, sir. I'll have this taken care
of--"
The sirens that had faded
into background noise suddenly exploded into a cacophony all around them. Janet
straightened and turned toward the sound to find several metallic cars hovering
a few feet above the surface. They kicked up the debris from the explosion in
their wake and a booming voice declared, "Dissenters! Throw down your
weapons and prepare to be taken into custody!"
Someone on the sidewalk
shouted, and a beam of red light shot out from the hovercraft. The bystander
was thrown back into the wall and fell to the ground as dead weight. The red
beam appeared again, this time picking out victims seemingly at random.
Janet's heart pounded. She
was suddenly aware that the only two people who had spoken with the team were
now either dead or, apparently, vaporized. She called to Teal'c, "Get Sam
into cover!" She didn't wait to see if he acknowledged or followed her
directions. She moved to O'Neill's head and hooked her hands under his arms.
"Sorry, sir, this is going to be rough."
She dragged him backwards
across the cobblestones, ignoring his cries of protest. The hovercraft intercom
said, "Cease attempts to escape. Lay down your weapons and prepare to be
taken into custody."
Janet got O'Neill to the door
of the building just as Teal'c arrived with Sam. They crouched in the lobby,
Sam's face again slack with unconsciousness. Janet reached out and slapped
Sam's cheek hard. Her blue eyes snapped open and focused on Janet with
confusion. "Stay awake," Janet growled. "You hear me? Until I
can determine whether or not you have a concussion, all right?"
"All right," Sam
said weakly.
Janet caressed Sam's cheek
where she had slapped it and turned her attention to O'Neill. She squeezed his
right foot through his boot and said, "Can you feel that, sir?"
"Yeah..."
"Thank God for small
favors." She lifted her head and scanned the room. The buffet was
abandoned, the ladies who had served them obviously having fled the explosion.
"Teal'c, the table... Break off the legs."
Teal'c rose and went to the
table. He swept aside the food and broke off two of the legs with only a
modicum of strain. He carried them back and Janet pulled a roll of gauze from
her pack. "We have to work quickly. I doubt the people in those hovercrafts
will wait to come after us." As she made a brace around O'Neill's leg,
Teal'c returned to the former buffet. He gathered the tablecloth and made a bag
out of it, filling it with crackers and bottles of jams. Provisions, should
they need more food than was in their packs.
"Sam, can you
walk?" Janet asked.
"Yeah..." Sam
managed.
"Okay, Teal'c... you'll
need to help the colonel."
Teal'c rose and took Janet's
place at O'Neill's side. Janet went to Sam and helped her up. "Come on,
babe. You can lean on me."
"Some romantic trip,"
Sam whispered as she slumped against Janet's side.
Janet smiled and strapped her
medical kit to Sam's vest, since her own was still upstairs. "At least
there are no mosquitoes."
Sam laughed at the reference
to their summer trips to the lake, and settled her weight against Janet's
shoulder. "Don't let me crush you..."
"Never," Janet
said. She reached up and gripped Sam's arm, turning to make sure Teal'c was
ready. "Okay. Come on."
"Where are we
going?" Sam asked. "This building and the one next door are the only,
if not safe, then familiar, places in town."
"Woods," O'Neill
said.
"He's right," Janet
said. "We have to get to the Stargate anyway; the woods will provide
cover."
She led the way through the
lobby and found a back door tucked in the shadows under the stairs. It was
probably some kind of servant entrance; maybe where the buffet workers had
brought the food in. Sam reached out and held the door open as she and Janet
limped out into a narrow alley. It was dark, the sun blocked by thick layers of
canvas stretched between their building and the next. Janet looked up and saw
that what hid the sun would also hide them from the hovercrafts. The alley was
clear of people, but she could see the locals running away from the town square
on the connecting streets.
"This way," she
said. Her heart was pounding. Sam was much heavier than she thought, and much
heavier than she had been on other occasions Janet had carried her. Of course,
those other times were a lot more enjoyable than... no, no time to think about
that. She focused on the task at hand. "Okay. Come on..."
Teal'c brought up the rear
with O'Neill, his hands full with his commanding officer on one side and his
staff weapon in the other. Sam's P-90 was strapped to her chest, and she had a
pistol and a zat strapped to her thigh. If necessary, either Sam or Janet could
be armed in a heartbeat. Janet just prayed it wouldn't be.
They slipped from the alley
with a quick look to make sure they weren't being watched. The hovercrafts had
landed in the ruined square. Large men suited in orange-and-black uniforms
carried guns through the still-circling dust, focusing on the injured and the
dead. Two men knelt by the remains of Craw'uel as if
there was a chance to save him.
Janet adjusted Sam more
comfortably against her shoulder and turned in the direction opposite ground
zero. They moved quickly through the streets, moving easily with the flow of
people trying to escape either further explosions or the guards or both. Janet
kept an eye on Sam's face, the streak of blood that was now halfway to her
cheek. "I should have taken care of that," she murmured.
"There will be time
later," Sam said. She brought her hand up and pressed it against the wound
to stop the blood.
"How is he doing,
Teal'c?" Janet asked.
"Peachy," O'Neill
answered.
Another wailing siren began
to lift, seeming to fill the town with its presence. "God, what now,"
Janet growled. She paused at an alley and looked down it as far as she could
see. She wished she had spent more time paying attention to the village's
layout when they arrived. She was fairly sure the Stargate was to her left, to
the east, but she couldn't be absolutely sure. "Teal'c..."
"This way, Dr.
Fraiser," Teal'c said. She turned and saw him slip down a second dark
alley.
Janet followed him, grateful
to be out of the role of leader for the time being. She had her arm curled
around Sam's, their fingers laced together so Janet could have a better grip.
But also so they could be holding hands, so Sam knew Janet was there with her.
She squeezed and said, "Doing okay?"
"Head hurts."
"I know, baby. I'll take
care of it as soon as I can."
They followed the winding
alley through the town. Overhead, the canvas rippled with the passage of more
ships searching for 'dissenters,' whoever they were. Teal'c paused at the other
end of the alley and craned his neck to peer out, keeping his body to the
shadows. Once he had determined the sky was clear and the orange-and-black-suited
guards weren't in the street, he glanced back to make sure Janet was keeping
up.
She was out of breath,
sweating under her jacket, and her back ached under Sam's weight, but she
nodded to him. He tilted his chin in response and slipped out of the alley.
Janet followed and discovered they were on the street that led into town. Over
the houses, she could see the canopy of the forest that housed the Stargate. Not far now, she thought. All they had
to do was get to the trees and then... well, and then they would have to make
it six kilometers without getting spotted.
Plus, there were creatures in
the wheat fields of the forest. Can't forget that little factoid.
But the city was far more
dangerous, they were infinitely more exposed. She hurried to catch up with
Teal'c, but the difference in their size - not to mention the burden she
carried - meant she could only hope to shorten the gap between them. Teal'c was
careful not to lose her, though. He occasionally looked back to make sure she
was staying with him. She felt a sense of pride that he never felt the need to
stop and wait for her.
By the time they reached the
edge of town, however, Janet had been pushed to her limits. She was panting,
hunched over and her hand was shaking against Sam's. "Teal'c," Sam
said. "Stop."
Janet shook her head. "No,
I'm fine..."
"You're not," Sam
insisted.
Teal'c stopped and lowered
O'Neill to the ground. They were at the outer limits of the town, against the
stone retaining wall of the last house before the land gave way to crops. Janet
rolled her shoulders, grateful for the reprieve even if she was a bit resentful
at being forced to stop. Sam and O'Neill were propped against the wall and
Janet pulled her kit off Sam's vest. She unzipped it and quickly ran through a
series of tests to check Sam's airwaves and cognitive functions. The wound at
Sam's hairline had been caused by a chip of cobblestone. Janet used tweezers to
remove it and placed a bandage over the cut.
When she was finished, Janet
said, "The good news is I don't think you have a concussion."
"So you slapped me for
no reason."
Janet raised an eyebrow.
"At the time, I--"
"You slapped me for no
reason," Sam said. "It's all right, I'm not mad. But I owe you
one."
Janet sighed dramatically and
moved to O'Neill's side. "How about you, sir? The leg?"
"I think I'm going to
scrap this one. It's okay. Got another one. Like new."
"Well, we'll just see if
we can't salvage them both, okay, sir?" She settled by his leg and gave it
a more thorough examination. "It's broken, but it's not as bad as it could
be. I don't think there's any internal bleeding. It'll be fine if you don't
aggravate it, and if I can get you back to the infirmary for some real medical
attention."
O'Neill grunted. "Great.
My favorite."
Janet forced a smile and used
a towel from her pack to finally clear some of the blood from his face. He had
been sweating, which helped, but he still looked like he had been the victim of
the make-up artist from a 'Braveheart' remake. She
finished with the towel and said, "Your clothes will probably be tossed,
if you can stand wearing them until we get home."
"What, you're not going
to do my laundry for me, Doc?"
"Because a woman's
rightful place is in the laundry room, Colonel?
Or maybe the kitchen, barefoot and pregnant," Janet said, a bit sharper
than she had intended. She gathered her supplies and looked at Teal'c, ignoring
O'Neill's confused expression. "How about you? You were in the explosion,
too."
"As were you,"
Teal'c said. "I, however, have the benefit of my symbiote."
"Yeah, Janet," Sam
said. "You don't look very good."
Janet pushed her bangs off
her forehead, surprised when her hand came back wet with sweat. She shook her
head. "I'll be fine."
"Teal'c... give her something to eat."
"No, I have..." She
reached into her pocket and withdrew the napkin she had put there earlier. The
cracker had been broken into several pieces and crumbs fell to her lap as she
unfolded it.
"Dr. Fraiser,"
Teal'c said. He had a handful of unbroken crackers and a small bottle of jam he
had liberated from the buffet.
Janet took them with a small
degree of humiliation. "Thank you, Teal'c." She spread the jam on the
cracker with her pinky and then sucked it clean. Teal'c handed out crackers to
the rest of the team and took several for himself.
Janet found herself to be ravenously hungry, sitting on her haunches as she ate
the cracker. She reached down and squeezed Sam's calf, met her eyes and
silently thanked her for forcing the rest stop.
In the body of the city, they
could hear the battle still raging. Sirens blew, weapons fired... perhaps the
guards had found dissenters or perhaps they were merely taking out their
frustrations on whoever was handy. "What the hell was he thinking?"
Sam said. "Trenauck. Why would he do that?"
"You heard him,"
O'Neill said. "That book of a brillo pad."
"Abrilen,"
Sam and Janet both said.
"Prophecies. Someone's
crazy interpretation of some scripture or another. It's the number one motive
for people getting blown up all over the universe."
Janet, who attended church
services at St. Luke's every Sunday dipped her head at this comment, but didn't
argue. She knew better than to get into an argument about religion with someone
who had fought and killed several self-proclaimed gods. In his shoes, she would
have lost a bit of faith herself.
"Okay. Fraiser, you good
to go?"
"I'm not the one who
asked to stop," Janet said, bristling at the idea she was being coddled.
O'Neill nodded slowly.
"Yeah. Okay. But we should leave before someone thinks to check out here.
Teal'c..." He held out one arm and Teal'c wrapped his arm around it. He
helped O'Neill to his feet while Janet did the same with Sam. Janet and Teal'c,
the smallest and biggest members of the team respectively, helped their injured
compatriots away from the town. The stone ground gave way to tilled dirt and
Janet led the way down one muddy track. Sam put her arm around Janet's waist,
her fingers under the hem of Janet's jacket to touch her T-shirt. "It's
all right, Sam, I have you."
"Doctor Fraiser!"
Janet turned at Teal'c's cry.
One of the hovercrafts had ascended higher than the tallest rooftops of the
town and was changing trajectory toward them. "We have been spotted,"
Teal'c said. "Get Major Carter to cover."
Janet tightened her grip on
Sam and began running. Teal'c lowered O'Neill to the ground to free both of his
hands for his staff weapon. O'Neill lay flat on his back, his right leg
stretched out in front of him as he prepared to fend off the approaching ship. The
red beam of light that she had seen kill several villagers shot out again,
kicking up a screen of dirt all around her. Janet ran as fast as she could with
Sam's weight and quickly reached the trees. The wall of wheat started just
beyond the trees and Janet lowered Sam to the ground inside the cover.
"Will you be all right here?"
"Yeah," Sam gasped, her face pale from the exertion of running. She
unsnapped her P-90 and handed it to Janet. "Take it."
Janet reluctantly took the
weapon and said, "I'll be back." She turned and ran back to where
Teal'c was preparing to open fire. She grabbed the collar of O'Neill's jacket
and said, "Sorry, sir. You'll have to sit this one out."
"Fraiser!" he
barked.
She had a moment of doubt,
but then she heard his voice again, the awful things he had said in the middle
of the night. "Half of the team is
made up of women. It's not a misogynist thing. It's a military thing. Leading a
team with two women, even if they are both
military..." She ran backwards, dragging him like a rag doll. He
cursed as his injured leg was jostled. Janet wished she could have been
gentler, even if she was pissed at him at the moment, but she needed her other
hand free for the gun.
The hovercraft was
approaching now, close to the edge of town, and she could hear the voice over
the loudspeaker. "Dissenters! You are engaged in illegal activity. If you
do not wish to be officially--"
Teal'c fired his staff weapon
at the ship. The bright yellow blast streaked into the overcast blue sky,
missing the hovercraft entirely. Janet watched as the atmosphere tore at the
energy beam and slowly dissipated it. Teal'c adjusted his aim and fired again,
this time gaining a blow against the aft side of the vessel. It canted
violently and black smoke began to pour from the damaged section.
Janet reached the woods just
as Teal'c turned and ran to catch up. He laid the staff weapon across his left
arm and turned his upper body to level another shot at the ship. The ship
lurched again and began to sound a new, strident siren. A distress call. Janet
dumped O'Neill next to Sam and crouched down to wait for Teal'c to reach them. The
ship he had fired upon crashed into a house at the edge of the village with a
horrific crunching sound. Janet prayed that no one was home as she turned away and
faced the injured soldiers.
"Jesus, Fraiser,"
O'Neill gasped.
"I got you out alive,
didn't I?"
"Dead or crippled for
life... I didn't realize I would have to choose."
Janet's compassion overtook
her anger. "Does it hurt any worse than it did before? Does it feel like
anything's been..."
"No, no," he
interrupted. "It's just... a little finesse would have been nice, that's
all."
"You're one to
talk."
He looked up, dark brown eyes
meeting her. She read real confusion in his expression and wondered if it would
be even worse that he didn't remember what he had said the night before. She
shook her head and muttered, "Forget it."
"If you have a problem
with me, let's address it," O'Neill said forcefully.
Janet looked at Sam, who was
watching the exchange with confused curiosity. Teal'c joined them and said,
"Other vessels are responding to the distress signal of the first."
He noted the tension in the small, dark clearing and looked between O'Neill and
Janet. "We should not delay."
"Right," O'Neill said.
He let Teal'c help him up and Janet crouched next to Sam.
"What was all that
about?" Sam whispered to her.
Janet shook her head.
"Later."
The team rose as one, O'Neill
leaning more heavily on Teal'c than Sam was on Janet, and they slipped through
the high weeds of the forest as three more hovercrafts converged on the crash
site of the first.
#
Six kilometers was just less
than four miles. It had seemed easy enough on the way to the village, but now
all Janet could think about were the twists in the path, the distance between
them and safety. It was still early afternoon, even with the planet's shortened
days, but under the cover of forest it was prematurely dark. To avoid ground
patrols, they stuck to the wheat, staying low and moving quickly. Teal'c was in
the lead to roust out any indigenous lions, tigers or bears that might be
hiding.
They quickly found that the
ground was uneven, their boots slipping and skidding along loose piles of dirt
and pebbles. Small skeletons lay half buried in the sand, making Janet shiver
and again scan the area around her for predators. Sam moved her hand to Janet's
shoulder and said, "Janet... I don't..." She collapsed to one knee
and clutched her stomach.
"Sam?" Janet
dropped next to Sam and checked her eyes. "Sam, what's wrong? What is
it?"
Sam covered her mouth and
turned away. She threw up, and Janet grabbed her hand and held it tight.
"It's okay," Janet breathed. She rubbed Sam's back and turned to look
at Teal'c and O'Neill. They were standing a few feet away, watching her. Janet
looked back at Sam and stroked her hair. "Are you all right?"
"Nauseated," Sam
rasped. She took Janet's canteen, flipped the top and took a long drag from it.
She wiped her mouth on the cuff of her sleeve and said, "I thought the crackers
and jam would... be all right, but..." She stifled a belch, closed her
eyes and visibly fought down another wave of nausea.
"Are you weak?
Dizzy?"
"A little. Both."
Janet looked at O'Neill.
"She's sick, sir. We need to take a while to rest."
"How long?"
"An hour." She
truthfully wanted four or five hours, but given the circumstances...
O'Neill nodded. "An
hour." He limped on his left leg to the trunk of a tree and used Teal'c's
arm to lower himself down. "I could use an hour myself, come to think of
it."
Teal'c moved to a thick tree
trunk close to the path, positioning himself so he couldn't be seen, and kept
an eye out for security. Janet sat down and pulled Sam to her. Regardless of
who was watching, she laid Sam's head in her lap and gently massaged her
temples. "Get some rest. I'll wake you when it's time to go."
"Thank you," Sam
whispered.
Janet kept her fingers moving
in slow circles at Sam's hairline. Before long, Sam's breathing became steady,
her muscles going limp with sleep. Janet rested her head against the tree and
looked over at O'Neill. His cap was over his face, either asleep or feigning it
so he wouldn't have to talk. Janet looked at Teal'c and saw he was watching her
fingers where they lay against Sam's hair. He met her eyes and Janet said,
"I love her."
"That much is
obvious."
Janet smiled and looked down
at Sam's face. "Obvious, huh?"
Teal'c's lips twitched in a
ghost of a smile. "To me, that is."
Janet laughed. "That's a
different story, isn't it." She brushed the backs
of her knuckles over Sam's cheek, and she stirred in her sleep.
Teal'c said, "Your
secret is safe with me, Dr. Fraiser."
She mouthed, 'thank you,' and
left her hand on the side of Sam's head. She looked at O'Neill and kept her
voice low so he wouldn't wake. "Teal'c. Your conversation last night with
Colonel O'Neill. How do you feel
about having me and Sam both on SG-1?"
He hesitated for a long
moment. Finally, he said, "Had you asked five years ago, my answer would
have been much different, Janet Fraiser. However, you and Major Carter have
both proven yourself to be formidable warriors in my time with the SGC. I will
gladly go into battle alongside either, or both, of you."
Janet searched his answers
for indications he was just saying what she wanted to hear, but she felt that
she knew him better than that. And he wasn't lying. "Thank you,
Teal'c," she said.
He looked at O'Neill and
said, "I believe he feels the same way. However, it is more difficult for
him to admit it to you. Or even himself."
"Why?"
"I do not know. Take
heart, Janet Fraiser. You need not worry about being accepted by this team.
That is a hurdle you passed many years ago."
Janet closed her eyes and
said, "Thank you again, Teal'c. For someone who doesn't speak much, you sure
have a way with words."
He smiled and bowed his head.
His smile froze then, and he moved his head to the side. Janet started to ask
what he had heard, but he brought his hand up to silence her. Sam must have
felt Janet's body tense and came awake. "What's wrong?" she
whispered.
Janet shook her head and
Teal'c dropped to a crouch. He tightened his grip on the staff weapon and
peered through the stalks of wheat. Janet eased her way out from under Sam, who
repositioned herself against the tree next to Janet's. Janet picked up Sam's
P-90 and Sam pulled the radio from her vest and pressed it into Janet's hand.
Janet nodded and moved quietly to Teal'c's side. He didn't acknowledge her
arrival, but she knew he was aware she had moved.
Three men in orange-and-black
suits were walking down the path, egg-shaped guns cradled in their hands. Janet
swallowed the lump in her throat and looked to Teal'c for guidance. He glanced
back at her and then looked pointedly at Sam and O'Neill. Janet knew what he
was thinking; they couldn't let their injured teammates be discovered. Janet
looked across the path to the other wall of wheat. She pointed at herself and
then nodded at the other side.
Teal'c considered it, and
then nodded. She would draw their attention, and Teal'c would take them down.
She tightened her grip on her weapon and suddenly felt sick. Anticipating
eye-level wheat whipping at her face, she pulled a pair of black goggles from
Teal'c's vest and slipped them on. They were a little too big for her, but
better than being blind. She held up three fingers and counted down. When she
folded her ring finger against her palm, she ran from cover. She turned toward
the security men just long enough to fire a burst over their heads and then ran
into the wheat. She heard them shout and then give chase.
Janet quickly found that the
ground on the opposite side of the path was just as untrustworthy as on the
side she had just left. She stumbled and lost her footing before she got
herself corrected. She found her feet under her and started weaving a haphazard
path through the trees. She swept aside the wheat stalks with her hands,
snapping against the black frames of Teal'c's goggles.
Behind her, she heard the
quiet woof of Teal'c's staff weapon firing. The alien soldiers returned fire,
their guns making hard little 'chuk-chuk-chuk'
sounds. She didn't stop when the firing stopped, for she heard sounds of
pursuit behind her. There was a burst of static on Sam's radio and Janet
grabbed it. "Teal'c?"
"There is one in pursuit
of you."
"I hear him," she
panted. She released the radio and focused on evasion. Once she nearly collided
with the wide, hairy back of some native creature that was crossing her path.
She and the creature both shrieked at each other and Janet side-stepped while
the creature backpedaled. She avoided it and continued on her path. She
threaded between trees, running blind through a sea of yellow and ochre wheat.
Several times, her boots
nearly slipped from underneath her. A nearby tree or a convenient branch kept
her from falling flat on her face, but she knew she couldn't run forever. The
farther she went, the more distance she would have to travel to meet up with
SG-1 again. She would never outrun the security man, and he would never
surrender. Her heart pounded, her breath coming in ragged waves. She had to end
this.
Janet found a clearing and
dropped to her knees. She brought the P-90 up and aimed it in the direction she
had come from, her eyes wide as she waited for her target to appear. She was
pouring sweat, her eyes stinging from it. She licked her lips, switched the gun
to one-shot and tensed her finger on the trigger guard to make sure it wouldn't
slip at the necessary moment. And then her finger went slack and she closed her
eyes.
"I can't do this,"
she whispered, her cheek against the butt of the tool that was only good for
injuring other human beings. "I can't kill."
It's to save your life, the lives of your team and the
woman you love.
"That doesn't make it
right. I'm a doctor."
Right now, you're a soldier first. Major Janet
Fraiser. You were not ordered to do this; it's something you must do. You
know that.
The wheat rustled. Janet
tensed her trigger finger. Time seemed to slow. The world of the forest was
dark all around her, the area she was focused on coming into stark relief. I can't, she thought.
You can, the
other voice insisted. You have to. You will. For Sam. The way I did
for Jack, for Sha're.
Janet's eyes widened
slightly. Daniel?
Fire.
Janet pulled the trigger just
as the orange-and-black tunic appeared through the wheat. A blossom of red
appeared on the front of the man's tunic and he spun, firing his weapon - 'chuk-chuk-chuk' - into the trees as he fell. Janet rose and
stared at his body, then started to run. She did her best to follow the crushed
wheat back to the path. She hit her radio and said, "Teal'c...?"
"You are to my right,
Janet Fraiser." He stepped out of the forest just enough that she could
see him. She ran toward him and ducked back into the relative protection of the
wheat. He had removed the dead bodies of the other two soldiers and they were
lying half-covered with fallen wheat stalks between two trees.
O'Neill was conscious again
and glared angrily at her. He spoke as soon as she was back under cover.
"What the hell were you thinking, Fraiser?"
"Sorry, sir," Janet
said, her voice flat. "I should have woken you up and let you be the
distraction."
He tightened his jaw, well
aware he had no argument, and said, "It was too risky."
Teal'c interjected. "We
must reach the Stargate, O'Neill. I believe those three were being sent to
guard it. We would have been forced to deal with them eventually."
"Right," O'Neill
said. He stared at Janet and said, "What happened to the third
guard?"
"Dead," Janet said.
She didn't elaborate and,
after a long moment, O'Neill realized she wouldn't. He nodded and said,
"All right. Next time, you run all your dumb ideas by me before you go
through with them, are we clear?"
"Yes, sir," Janet
said.
"Good. Now, I think
we've wasted enough time here. Carter?"
"I'm okay, sir,"
Sam said. "I can move."
"Sam, you threw
up..."
"It was nausea,
Janet," Sam said. "I would have thrown up regardless of whether I was
in an explosion." She used the tree to push herself up and then clung to
Janet's side. "We still have, what, four klicks
to go before we reach the Stargate? You can berate me while we walk."
Janet settled herself more
comfortably under Sam's arm and said, "It's a deal."
The women waited while Teal'c
got O'Neill up and balanced, and then the team slipped away from their
temporary camp and continued through the wheat. After they had been walking a
while, Sam looked around and said, "Sir, where exactly did we meet Trenauck?"
"About halfway between
the Gate and the village," O'Neill said.
"So about three
clicks," Sam said. "That's about how far we've traveled already,
wouldn't you say?"
O'Neill said, "Hold up,
Teal'c." He looked around and said, "You think we could find the spot
where he was meditating?"
"What would that tell
us?" Janet asked.
"Maybe a clue as to why
he blew himself up," Sam said. "Teal'c, do you think you could find
it?"
Teal'c looked toward the path
and then scanned the trees. "We have not yet reached it, O'Neill. I shall
tell you when we are near."
"Good enough. Let's keep
going."
They walked on in a straight
line, wavering only to avoid a tree or a particularly steep pile of sandy dirt,
until Teal'c said, "It was near this spot."
"Are you sure, T?"
O'Neill asked. "How can you tell?"
Teal'c pointed to the path.
"We made this curve not long after Trenauck
began guiding us."
"Good enough for me.
Let's keep our eyes peeled."
Sam put her hand in the small
of Janet's back and nodded that she was all right to walk on her own. Janet
released her so they could spread out, but she kept her eye on Sam for any
signs that she was fading. A few minutes later, Teal'c called out,
"Here!"
The women converged on his
voice and found him with O'Neill in the clearing where Trenauck
had been meditating. Teal'c stood in front of the fire pit, stirring the embers
with the butt of his staff weapon. He looked up as Janet entered the clearing.
Janet looked at the pit and then scanned the surrounding area for further signs
of his religion. "He spent two days here," Sam said. "He must
have left something behind."
"Yeah," O'Neill
said. He was leaning against a tree where Teal'c had left him. "I just
hope we don't stumble over his latrine."
Sam grimaced. "Thank you
for that image, sir."
Teal'c knelt in the tall
grass at the edge of the clearing and searched through the stalks of wheat. Sam
looked up, in case he had stored his provisions in the trees to protect them
from predators. She was about to give up when she spotted a gray satchel
wrapped in a rope net. "There," she said. "Right there."
Teal'c followed her finger
and moved to the base of the tree. A low branch offered a convenient step,
probably how Trenauck had gotten his stuff up there
in the first place, and Teal'c knocked the package down with his staff. Janet
caught it before it hit the ground. Sam walked over and used her knife to cut
the rope and release the bag. Teal'c got O'Neill and brought him over so he
could explore the contents with them.
Sam untied the top of the bag
and knelt to pour the contents onto the ground. O'Neill picked up a book and
opened it to find the pages filled with tiny, jagged handwriting. He grimaced
and said, "Geez. I wish Daniel was here to..."
All four of them froze, and
Janet lifted her head to look at Sam. She was looking at a red bag filled with
apples, but her eyes were focused on something miles away.
Finally, O'Neill cleared his
throat and turned the book around to Teal'c. "Can you read that?"
Teal'c took the book from
him. "I cannot."
"Can I see that,
Teal'c?" Janet asked. He handed her the book and she squinted at it. She
glanced at O'Neill, cleared her throat and said, "It's, um...
it's in English, sir."
"That is not
English," O'Neill said.
Janet read from the page it
had opened to. "'...fifteen of them, I believe. There was no way of
counting. I watched as they approached the church - sacrilege, but they shall
pay for their sins - with a--"
"All right, all right.
How can you read it?"
"She has doctor's
handwriting," Sam suggested. "She can read anything."
Janet returned Sam's grin and
handed the satchel to Teal'c. "I'll go through this and see if there's
anything about his suicide bombing plan."
She moved to lean against a
nearby tree and flipped to the back of the book. As she read, she occasionally
glanced up to watch SG-1 work. More specifically, she watched Sam. She had
spent almost three years as Sam's lover, almost six as her best friend, but
this was a side of her that Janet rarely got to see. Sam the scientist, Sam the
woman, and Sam the soldier. There were so many sides to her that Janet wondered
if she would ever see them all. She turned the last page in the journal and
made a silent vow that she would never stop looking.
Janet's reverie was
interrupted when she read the last entry. "Whoa-oh, guys. I think I have
something." She turned back a page and began to read out loud. "'Our
numbers have grown and it is only a matter of time before we are able to lay
siege to the ones in power.' There's a space," she said, "and then he
picks up again: 'A sign, at last! Strangers are coming. This is what we have
been waiting so long for. The status kwah-o...'
Status quo, I think he meant... 'The status quo will be overturned. Craw'uel will be shown our true might and will know the
strength of our convictions.'"
"Holy war," O'Neill
said. "Great."
"It sounds like there
was a difference of opinion concerning interpretations of the Book of Abrilen," Janet said. "Those security forces on
our tail are of one belief, while Trenauck and his
group were of another."
"Which ones are the good
guys?" Sam said.
O'Neill said, "Does it
matter? We're getting out of here as soon as we can get back to the Stargate.
But if you need a label, just consider the bad guys to be the ones who are
shooting at us."
"Works for me," Sam
said.
Janet closed the book and
tucked it into her jacket pocket. It could prove interesting to someone back at
the base. She searched the clearing and said, "Anything else we need to take
with us?"
"Nope," O'Neill
said. "Come on. Let's get outta here before they check on those
guards." He looped his arm around Teal'c's shoulders again.
#
Janet led the way through the
Stargate, relieved to see the comforting gray walls of the Earth Gate Room once
again. "Can we get a medical team in here, please?" She took off her
cap and guided Sam down the ramp. Sam had reluctantly allowed Janet to start
helping her again when she became winded on the way to the Stargate. "It's
just a stomach bug," Sam insisted. "I'll be fine..."
"You're pale, weak and
nauseated. No matter what is wrong, you're going to the infirmary."
Orderlies arrived with two gurneys and Janet let O'Neill take the first. She
loaded Sam onto the second and explained the situation to one of her orderlies.
Hammond arrived alongside the medical team and watched to make sure his team
wasn't in desperate need of help. Janet, her patients handed off, ran the back
of her hand across her forehead and nodded to him. "General."
"What happened?"
"A difference of
religious opinion," Teal'c said.
"We'll debrief in half
an hour. Will Colonel O'Neill and Major Carter be joining us?"
Janet said, "Colonel
O'Neill has a broken leg, and Major Carter has, I think, a stomach bug. I
thought she had a concussion, but I think it was just a bump to the head. I'll
check... I'll... have the infirmary check it out for certain, though."
"Good enough.
Dismissed."
Teal'c handed his staff
weapon to one of the soldiers nearby, and fell into step next to Janet.
"Your first mission proved quite... eventful, Janet Fraiser."
"Ha," she breathed.
"Yeah, you could definitely say that." Her back ached from carrying
Sam's weight for so long, her eyes were sore and she was starving. Those
jam-covered crackers, though big, didn't fill her up very much. Not to mention
the fact she and the guys had been reluctant to eat any of them after Sam's
threw hers up. "Do you want to get something to eat before the
debriefing?"
"Thank you, Dr. Fraiser,
but I believe I will take the opportunity to shower."
"All right."
"Another time?"
She smiled. "I'd like
that." She brushed his arm and said, "Besides, I should check on Sam
and Colonel O'Neill. Make sure they're comfortable."
"Very well." The
elevator arrived and Teal'c stepped inside. He held the door open with one hand
and said, "I believe you would be an excellent addition to SG-1, Janet
Fraiser."
She smiled. "Thank you,
Teal'c. That means a lot to me."
He bowed to her and pulled
his hand back. Janet unzipped her jacket and turned to walk down the corridor
when she realized someone was standing behind her. "Oh."
"Hi," Jonas Quinn
said. He gestured at the elevator doors. "So, the, uh, long quest is
finally over. SG-1 is getting their new fourth team member after all."
Janet smiled and shrugged.
"You never know. But I wouldn't put money on it."
She smiled at his quizzical
expression and walked away, eager to get to the infirmary to check on Sam.
#
Carolyn was busy across the
infirmary, so Sam was alone within a half-closed curtain. She had stretched
out, wrapped the blankets around herself, and had one hand over her eyes. Janet
slipped up next to the bed and lightly brushed her fingers down Sam's forearm.
"Hey. You okay?"
Sam nodded. "Stomach
hurts."
"I'll get you some
medicine," she said. She started to back away from the bed when Sam
gripped her wrist and whispered her name. Janet stopped and said, "What is
it, babe?"
Sam had taken her hand off
her eyes and said, "I want you to know that I'm okay with whatever
happens. If you're on SG-1 or not. I just... I wanted to give you the
opportunity. I wanted to give you the chance."
"I know. I appreciate
it, Sam. Without you, I never would have been considered for an SG team."
"I love you so
much."
Janet shushed her. She
stroked Sam's hand and whispered, "I love you, too, dear."
"You're... the first
person since my Mom who could make me feel safe and taken care of."
Tears pricked Janet's eyes
and she said, "Sam... I'm touched."
"Thank you for taking
care of me."
Janet bent down and kissed
Sam's forehead, letting her lips linger on the fevered flesh. "Always,
Sam." Her breath brushed aside Sam's hair as she spoke.
"Always."
#
General Hammond looked up and
said, "Jack. How's the leg?"
O'Neill limped into the
office and said, "Oh, it'll be just fine, sir, assuming I don't aggravate
the injury further." He eased himself into the chair across from Hammond
and extended his right leg carefully. "I anticipate many missions
comprised of meet-and-greets where I can just sit at a table and sample the
fine local cuisine."
Hammond smiled. "I'll
see if I can adjust the mission schedule accordingly."
"Speaking of which, sir,
I would like to take this opportunity to make a recommendation regarding the
new member of my team. Janet Fraiser proved herself to be an exemplary addition
to SG-1, sir, and I would be happy to have her."
"I'm not surprised,
Colonel," Hammond said. "Unfortunately, it's become a moot
point."
"Sir?"
"Dr. Fraiser spoke to me
in private following the mission briefing. She told me that she would not
accept a field position in order to remain the Chief Medical Officer of this
base. Sorry, Jack. The search goes on."
Jack sighed and sank against
the back of his chair.
#
"All right, Fraiser, out
with it." Janet looked up from Captain Gwendolyn Bowen's chart as O'Neill
stormed into the infirmary. He was walking with a slight hitch to his step and
stopped at the foot of the bed. "Is this about the..." He glanced at
Bowen and adjusted his phrasing, "...the comment I made off-world?"
She looked up in surprise. "Teal'c told me."
"No, sir," Janet
said. She closed the chart and hooked it on the foot of the bed. She started to
walk away, speaking to him over her shoulder. "The comment is why I didn't
tell you directly. But it had nothing to do with my decision."
O'Neill followed her as she
checked on another patient. "Look, I want you to know... I said what I
said because..."
"I know why you said
it," Janet interrupted. "You really don't need to explain."
"Yeah, I think I do.
When I put the first off-world team together, do you know who I assigned? Ferretti, Kawalsky... military men. Daniel Jackson was
forced onto my team. A geek, a scientist. I didn't feel I needed him, and I
damn sure didn't want him. And now it's taken me six damn weeks to find a
replacement for him because I don't want to admit he's gone. And Carter...
another scientist. A woman. And do you think I could fill her place on my team
with anyone on this base?"
"No, sir," Janet
said. She was looking down at the bed, picking at the pattern in the blanket
with her fingernails.
O'Neill was well aware of
people in the infirmary watching them, but he didn't pay them any attention. He
was focused entirely on Janet. "I like to think I've changed since then, I
do. I like to think, in a large part, that Carter and Daniel helped me make that change. But I'm going to slip
sometimes. I'm going to make dumb-ass comments. But that's not who I am."
"I know, sir,"
Janet said. She looked up and met his eyes. "I understand that now. I'm
sorry."
"No," he said. "You
have nothing to apologize for." He cleared his throat and said, "Dr.
Fraiser, I would like to extend my sincerest apologies for what you overheard.
I hope you can forgive me."
Janet smiled and said,
"I'll see what I can do."
He nodded. "And would you
reconsider the position on SG-1? Come on. If you say no, I'll have to take Rothman for a trial run."
"Sorry, sir."
He sighed. "Right. Well,
I had to ask. You're the best candidate we've had so far. I was looking forward
to what you had to teach me."
"I'll still be
around," Janet said. "Any time you need feminine wisdom, you know
where to find me."
He smirked and said,
"Right. Now, if you'll excuse me... I've been serious for far too long. I
have a syndicated week's worth of 'The Simpsons'
waiting on my VCR."
Janet laughed. "Enjoy
it, sir."
She watched him limp away and
turned back to her patient. "Sorry about that... how are you
feeling?"
#
Janet closed her book on her
thumb and got off the couch at the sound of the quiet knocking on the door. It
was half past eleven, and Cassandra was supposed to be in bed. Therefore, the
only person who would be so considerate and would be visiting this late...
"Hey, Sam," she said as she opened the door.
"Hey." Sam wore a
denim shirt, either white or very faded blue, and
black trousers. She had her helmet under one arm - the helmet she had hardly
ever worn until Janet made her promise to never ride without one - and the
collar of her leather jacket was turned up. She looked like a butch fantasy
come to life, her short blonde hair standing up in spikes from the
quickly-removed headgear. She gestured at herself and said, "This is what
you call feminine?"
Janet smiled, put her arm on
Sam's hip and drew her into the house. Her welcoming kiss, once they were behind
closed doors, was slow and passionate. Janet stood on her toes, her body
pressed tight against Sam's, and she reveled in the feel of Sam's rough clothes
against her pajamas. When they parted, Sam rubbed her nose against Janet's and
said, "Is it too late?"
"No, never," Janet
said. She lowered her feet to the floor, as always slightly embarrassed by the
difference in their heights when Sam wore shoes and she was barefoot, and led
her into the living room. "Can I get you something to drink?"
"I'm fine," Sam
said. She sat on the couch and held her hand out. Janet took it, and allowed
herself to be pulled down onto Sam's lap. They kissed again and Sam slipped her
hand into Janet's pajama top. Janet sighed and arched her back until Sam's warm
palm found her nipple. "You're not wearing a bra?" Sam whispered.
"Comfort, remember?"
Janet said. She moved her head and captured Sam's lips again. Sam moved her
free hand to Janet's lap, easing it between her thighs. Janet's pajamas were so
thin that she felt every brush of Sam's fingers, the bite of her fingernails
and the warmth of her palm. She sighed into Sam's mouth and said, "Baby,
you better hurry..."
"Why?" Sam asked,
kissing the corner of Janet's mouth.
"It's late," Janet
said. She kissed Sam deeply, moaned and said, "We can make it a quickie... get you home before midnight."
Sam cupped Janet's mound with
her hand and Janet whimpered. "No," she said.
"No?" Janet
breathed.
Sam shook her head. "I'm
not going home tonight." She slipped her tongue into Janet's mouth.
"Mm?" Janet asked, her tongue too occupied with Sam's to form a word.
"Mm-mm," Sam
replied.
When they parted, Janet undid
one button on Sam's shirt and slipped her hand inside. She groaned when her
fingers met cotton. "Undershirt... no fair..."
Sam smiled. "You can
take your time taking it off of me."
"Yeah? Because you're...
what?"
"Spending the
night," Sam whispered. She kissed Janet again and said, "I'm spending
the night with you. It's been too long."
"It was last week."
Sam said, "That was
off-world. That doesn't count."
"No?"
"No. It only counts in
your bed, in your sheets... in the same bed, for that matter."
Janet smiled and said,
"Well, we should get the night started then. Let's go to bed." She
started to get up, but Sam tightened her grip.
"Where do you think
you're going?"
Janet's smile wavered.
"T-to bed?"
Sam stood up, cradling Janet
in her arms. "Well, that's a given. But after you carried me six klicks through enemy
territory, you think I can't carry
you fifty feet to the bedroom?"
Janet bowed her head and
kissed Sam's neck. "Well, you have
been sick, sweetheart. I'm just thinking of your poor, delicate health..."
"Don't coddle me,"
Sam said, lowering her voice as they passed Cassie's bedroom.
Janet started to unbutton
Sam's shirt as they went into the dark bedroom. She moved her mouth down and
plucked at the neck of the white undershirt with her teeth. "It's a
deal."
Sam smiled as she kicked the
bedroom door shut.
#
Sam lay with her body curled,
her knees drawn to her chest. Her head was on Janet's stomach, her lover's
pubic hair tickling her face. Janet had her legs wrapped loosely around Sam's
body, her ankles hooked together. Janet drew her fingers through Sam's hair,
letting it feather out across her stomach like lace. Sam's eyes were nearly
closed from the constant petting, not to mention the hour that had preceded it.
"So, was this your plan when you came over?"
"No," Sam said. She
slid her arms around Janet and pressed her hands into the small of her back.
"I wanted to ask why you said no."
Janet said, "I don't
remember saying no to anything tonight..." She felt Sam smile against her
stomach. "You mean about SG-1."
"Yeah," Sam said.
She sat up and rested her chin on Janet's pelvis. "The reasons you gave
General Hammond. Were they the truth?"
"Yes," Janet said.
"I feel I'm more needed as the CMO of the base, rather than just for one
team. They need me in the infirmary. It's what I'm good at. It's what I'm meant
to do."
"I can understand that,"
Sam said. She kissed Janet's stomach, then slowly slid
up. She kissed between Janet's breasts, to her collarbone, and sucked her neck
until Janet was squirming beneath her again. "But is that the only
reason?"
"The United States
military does not condone torture in the interrogation of prisoners, according
to the Geneva... oh, fuck..."
"Was that a
request?" Sam asked. She kissed Janet's chin. "If it's a request, it
doesn't count as torture, prisoner."
Janet's eyes were closed.
"I thought... we were having a serious conversation..."
"We can't have a serious
conversation if my hand is right here...?"
"The hand... is
fine," Janet breathed. "It's your finger that's causing
problems..."
"This finger?"
"Sam...!"
Sam chuckled and withdrew her
hand.
Janet licked her lips and
said, "A long time ago, I made a decision. Soldier or doctor. I ask people
to refer to me as Doctor, not Major. That's who I am. When I got promoted from
Captain, there was no big ceremony, just a different pin on my uniform. I'm not
a soldier. I'm a doctor. That's where I'm needed, and where I belong." She
drew Sam's face to hers and kissed her hard. When they parted, Janet said,
"But thank you for seeing that I could be something more."
Sam ran her hand along
Janet's flank and said, "You can do anything you put your mind to."
"Ooh," Janet said,
squirming under the skim of Sam's palm. "Even that thing you said was too
kinky?"
"What did I say was too
kinky?"
Janet crooked a finger and
Sam bent down. Janet whispered in her ear and then traced her tongue along the
shell. Sam shuddered and lifted her head again. "You want to do
that?"
Janet bit her bottom lip and
nodded, eyes shining in the dark.
"We can definitely do
that."
Janet's eyes widened.
"Seriously?"
"I mean, not tonight.
We'll have to wait for a night when Cassandra isn't home..."
"Oh, definitely,"
Janet said. "I didn't mean you had to jump up right now and go... no,
but... just for future reference."
"Right," Sam said.
"Consider it filed away." She smoothed her hands over Janet's stomach
and said, "Do you still have the T-shirt I used to sleep in?"
Janet nodded and sat up,
pressing her upper body against Sam's as she pointed. "Bottom drawer of
the bureau."
Sam climbed off Janet and
slipped out of bed. Janet rolled onto her side and watched as Sam rooted
through the bottom drawer. She let her eyes linger on Sam's ass, then followed the curve of Sam's spine, the smooth skin
stretched tight over the muscles of her back. Janet felt a twinge at the sight
of the scar tissue across that perfect back, most of the damage visible only to
her eyes. A cut that had gone too long before stitching here, a scrape that was
almost completely healed there... evidence of her soldier's life.
"Here it is," Sam
whispered. She pulled the shirt out, flipped it a few times to unfold it, and
pulled it over her head.
As Sam disappeared into the
cotton, Janet was suddenly aware of why she was so sure she didn't belong on
SG-1. It was Sam's job to put herself into danger, to get cut and scraped and
put her body on the line for the good of others. But it was Janet's job to mend
her, to put her back together when the day was over. Janet's job was to protect
Sam while she was protecting others.
Sam pulled the shirt into
place over her breasts and walked back to bed. "United States Air Force
Academy" was stretched across Sam's breasts, and the hem of the shirt
ended just below Sam's crotch, and she pushed her hand against it as she
crawled into bed. Janet held the blankets up for her and Sam put her body
against Janet's. They kissed and Janet smoothed her hand over the back of Sam's
head.
When they parted, Janet said,
"Why did you stop sleeping here?"
"The truth? After
Daniel, I was scared of losing you. Of losing someone so dear to me. I mean, if
Daniel dying nearly kills me..." She moved her hand to Janet's cheek.
"But I was going about it wrong. Shit happens. We both might have died in
that bombing. And if we had... I never would have forgiven myself. If I'm
scared of losing you, I need to make sure I've spent every possible second with
you. In your arms, in your bed..."
Janet sighed. "Well, if
it's something you've decided you must
do..."
Sam smiled. "I love
you."
"I love you, too,"
Janet whispered.
Sam moved her hand down
Janet's back, drew her close... and then slapped her ass hard enough to make
Janet squeal and jump back. "Samantha!"
"You slapped me for no
reason when we were off-world. I was just getting even."
Janet's jaw dropped open in
shock and then she pounced on the blonde. "I'll show you getting
even," Janet promised as she tugged off the shirt Sam had just put on.
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